Its Awesome,US =)

2010-07-14T01:24:00.002+08:00

I guess this is the last post i'll be typing here.

Having a change of address, and possibly website.

Sooo... just hang in there and we'll see what comes!

2010-02-17T20:28:00.003+08:00

Oh my gosh!
I just read like the sweetest thing ever! ^^
Its sooooo sweet, melting my hearttttt
I love you much baby! =)
I'll always love youuuu.
Foreverrrrrr.
♥

2010-02-15T13:51:00.002+08:00

YOU go and die la.
Like i so bloody care.
You're just another lesson learnt during this summer.
GET LOST.

I don't care if its chinese new year or Valentines' Day.
U mess with me and my feelings, u get a crap load of shietts back at you.
You think i care or bother about it so much?
No, i don't give a damn. So, shut the door behind you.
Walk away.
Never come back again.
Get the heck outta my face.

Voices in my head

2010-01-30T21:51:00.003+08:00

There's this little voice in my head telling me things.
I should have not followed my heart and trust someone that easily.
I should have not called you a friend.
I should have not let u into my life.
I regret.
For this i pay the price.
The price of no return.
I wished i've never met u.
I wished i never knew u.
Most of all, i wished u never hurt me.

But right now its too late.
Its hopeless.
Because someone like you can never change.
And someone like me is stupid enough to try and let u in again.

ps: I miss my crazy gang back home =( I really do. Miss u guys.

2010-01-21T19:33:00.003+08:00

I am speechless.
My eyes are swollen.
My throat is dry.
My body feels weird.
My mind doesn't seem to be functioning.
I cannot breathe.
My heart is racing.

Standing in this static.
Waiting.

Not forgotten =)

2010-01-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

Hahaha,i'm sorry for not updating lately..
Study life demands a lot frm u..
I have been typing blogs in microsoft words..
not to mention emails..
aahhh,just that i have to find the time to post it up!
LOL..
u must be thinking,why the fuss..
so simple,click click click.. hehe..
partly because i'm a bummer,i admit it.. ^^
But don't fret..
i promise i'll get it done reli reli soon alright?
I know some ppl are dying to noe wad i'm up to..
Its hard to imagine Geraldine so quiet..

and here's a lil smth for somebody!
Good luck and all the best in UK!
I don't know whether you'll see this or not but i haven't forgotten our blog =)
Settle down first and then i'll talk to you about bloggin lessons.. hehe..
I'm still doing my part on deco..
and i know how its like being in a new country and study life,so don't worry about it too much..
You'll do just fine ^^
I love you =D
and missing you!

Loving Legals! =)

2009-12-19T20:24:00.052+08:00

Hello hello!
I know its been a long time since i updated,mwahahaha...
People are complaining, my pictures and words are building up.
Hahaha,but i'm making it as brief as i can...

Soooo...i finished my 3 weeks placements on the 4th December and my 2 weeks holidays are coming to an end.
GOSH. I'm starting my diploma on Mon.
While people are partying away,i'm gonna study my butt off. Sad case.
Anyway...here's so you can catch up what's happened..

Saturday, 5th December 2009
-I went shopping for december babies! Had a rough time thinking what to buy for them. Fed the birds for the first time.

Sunday,6th December 2009
-As usual,went to church and then Xiang Xiang's house to cook! Thanks for lending us your kitchen. And we fed the birds today AGAIN^^
By the way,Merry Christmas!

Kong,Helen and I was having fun having a picnic at Victoria Square. We fed the birds and played around on the grass. Its a common practice to lie on the grass here,unlike in Msia where you get people staring at you and poop on your butts.

Hello birdie =)

This was unintentional. But the bird was so close i cannot resist catching it!

At Xiang Xiang's kitchen enjoying our hard work ^^

Monday,7th December 2009
-Happy birthday Kong! she accompanied me to collect my new Acer Timeline laptop =) And yes,the 8 hour battery is superb! Thanks daddy,mummy and auntie Rita for the early bday and christmas present! I know its out of budget so thank you so much. Love you!

Tuesday, 8th December 2009

- Debrief day for our placements. Talked with Paula and Fiona,our lecturers regarding our experience and all that. Had a birthday party for the 4 of us;Kong,Chua,Michelle and me!

Cake from Paula...

Happy Birthday Kong! (pink sweater) I hope you liked my present ^^ Thanks for being there for me when it gets tough,love you da jie..

Murdering the cake..

Wednesday,9th December 2009

-The four of us went to the library. I had to get some chocolates for Auntie Sheila's kids to pass to her when i meet her tomorrow.

Thursday,10th December 2009

-Went to the airport to send Auntie Sheila off. She's going back to Malaysia after a month's holiday at Adelaide.

Friday,11th december 2009

-Happy Birthday Uncle Chua!

Sorry didn't go library because of tummy problems... hope you like the present! Took long time to choose one alright...

Saturday,12 December 2009

Hey hey hey! Happy birthday to me =) I'm loving legals!

Had a birthday bash with the rest of dec babies today!
A great night!

Esther,you're not fat.Very pretty^^

Enjoy yr holidays girl! and your cup is still in my room waiting for you in jan..=p

Masato! First time meeting him that night.

Thanks to Caroline,Debrah and Li Qun for the cake,i loved the topping =)

The guys had a great surprise.. =p

Oh my dear duck got raped. =p meet Yutaka.. In case you didn't know,he was the pretty lady in pink in previous pictures ^^

My presents =) thanks so much guys..

Thanks Kong!

Thanks Helen!

Thanks Michelle =) By the way, she said this koala looks like Yien Peh. Haha..

Thanks Chua!

Thanks Susan and Esther!

And thanks for all the sms,emails,wishes that i've received..hehe..

Happy 18th to mua ^^

Sunday,13th December 2009

-Church again =)

Monday,14th December 2009

- Went out with Esther and Susan today to do the scrapbook for Ahm..then had party for him at night.. =)

Loving legals!

Tuesday,15th December 2009

-Went out early with Esther and Susan again to print the remaining pictures. Did the editing at the library and this was what we get!

Done by Esther and Susan, Assisted by Geraldine and Michelle...
We made our way to the airport...

and i was sitting down on the floor being stupid next to Yutaka.. haha..

Shiny Converse bag. I did not regret buying you in Kuching,you served me well ^^

Happy Birthday Michelle! =) Hope you liked the present!

I wanna go home. HHHHMMPPHH.

I do not look good in Yutaka's accessories. Gosh. There's this sign on my head saying "Call me Auntie Geraldine".

SEEE he's tall.
For a japanese guy.

Burning the disc for Ahm.

So pity,until tertidur.

With Ahm.

Wednesday,16th December 2009

-Forgotten

Thursday,17th December 2009

-Accompany Michelle to find the temple,went Chinatown and eat.

Friday,18th December 2009

-Happy birthday Hugh Lim!!! You will always be my best friend like....always.

Really miss you. I hope you enjoyed the long distance call~ Can't wait to go back and give you the packet. USE IT WISELY BROTHER. Find a girlfriend first then let me know =) I tolong you beli the Aussie thinnest ******. =p

To Ahm,all the best! Missing you and your Kimchi already. Hope we can meet again in the future! Go KOREA!!

A lot has been going on. Seriously.

Like for starters,i am in the middle of construction for this blog. Mwahaha,its time for change. And,i am also on a new project. Have another blog to do for us =)

Things just seriously is easy when you have so much pics ^^

Await my next post for elaborations =D This post is getting too long, i don't want to make you guys fall asleep. =p

Apple apple hanging on the tree ^^

2009-12-09T21:48:00.002+08:00

Hey hey,its Wednesday! =)
Am going to be busy with photos and bloggie to type.
Gonna add in a bit of editing to mah blog too.
Its time for something new.
CHRISTINE I NEED HELPPPP
=)
lots of things have happened lately.

To mention one,i have changed my status in facebook.
Haha,the one word that came out of everyone was "FINALLY."
Lols,you people.

Anyways,wait for new stuff alright while i busy myself here.
See how much you mean to me?
I even sacrificed my holidays to make you happy =p

And apple dear,i do miss you too. LOTS. You'll be my diary,always.

To have him beside you

2009-11-30T18:00:00.003+08:00

Second week of placements are over and the last week begins!
I'm just praying time pass a lil faster so i can finally breathe.
Quite tired running around with a schedule like shietttss.
Anyways,i'm still alive so be happy! Or be sad,which ever suits you better =p
Christmas is coming and so is my 18th birthday..
Kinda weird,my first time celebrating it away from home and ppl i love.
A lot has been happening these days.
I really wanna share here,so you'd have to wait till this weekend!

The one thing that really had me thinking was, although most of these old people i'm taking care of has dementia or Alzheimers (basically means deteriorating loss of memory,slowly by slowly), they can still remember that one special person in their lives. Their husband/wife.
Oh my GOD i tell you.
This woman was sitting there and talking with her husband. Then he had to leave till his next visit few days later. After he went, i saw that she was silently crying.
I went over with tissues and ask what happened,in case it was pain or something.
She just look and me and answer " I don't know dear,but i feel something's out of place. Like something is missing."
I just wipe her tears away and squeeze her hand.
I went and do a few things then came back and check on her again.
Then she told me something that i wanted to burst out crying like on the spot.
She said "I know what's wrong dear. My husband went away."

OH MY GOD. I tell you. How can someone that cannot even remember something so simple like her own name remembered that she loved this man so much? You cannot help but feel like breaking down. OH. MY GGOSHHHHHH.

Cen Cu Nai Cha!

2009-11-22T18:37:00.026+08:00

I'm back =) hehehe...
I'm actually on my placement you see,that's why i can't reli update..
Well,my first day (Monday) was a total mess because both senior carers in charge of me and Iveta was on off day. Had a friction blister the first day on the sole of my foot. OUCH.
Very tiring... my shift is like 8.00am to 4.30pm Mondays to Wednesdays..
Then on Thursday and Friday its 12.30 noon till 9.00pm...

Second day (Tuesday)was alright, we had a look on the care plans for our case study. Had to pick a resident to study their case. HANDLED a lot of poop.

Third day (Wednesday),i used a lot of lifter with Cheryl,my senior carer. Even had sing-along carolling with the residents.

Fourth day (Thursday) was actually a miracle because there was power shortage on our very first afternoon shift. We're lucky to have such things happen during our placement. It was dark except for a few emergency lights. Was outta electricity for about an hour,and worked extra 40 mins. Because Yenny was alone, me and Iveta actually had a corridor each and got to use a pager [we're still trainees so we don't normally have a pager]. I think it was that horrible thunderstorm that caused the outage. Christine babe,you're lucky yr nt here! The thunder here is extremely louder somehow. Michelle came along and helped because Iveta was giving us a lift since we missed the bus. Was rather nervous but still have to maintain composure and give comfort to residents. =)
we're a pretty lucky batch!

Fifth day (Friday)was POOP big time! Weather changes makes ppl's bowel movements go crazy. Everyone seems to have problem with pooping. Watery~~~~ ewwwwww. You have got to pity us for handling so many body fluids... =p Ran under the rain today all the way from Ananda to the Shell station to catch the bus. I think Michelle posted the pics dy,i'll go grab from her later.

Saturday was a rainy day. Last minute, we walked to Foodland to buy groceries. I actually planned to go to Harvey Norman in the city but the weather was kinda getting to me.

Sunday,which is today... As usual,went to church and did some walking around. Had beef noodles! =) Oh my gosh,feeling rather fat already. Hahaha...
We had two birthdays,Helen and Swen who both turned 18 this month...so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I had some good news yesterday, heard that Terence's coming over! =)
Yay,can't wait till you get here ^^
You'll be my neighbour all over again...

My first subway here!

Have you ever seen someone carry watermelon like this on the bus? hahaha... that will be me ^^

McD =D

Beef noodles!

Crazily hungry~

And my honey with pearls!

Can't believe there's shops here selling cen cu nai cha!

Tomorrow will be Monday, and i'll be starting second week of placements.

Ohhhhhhh my gosh. I hope i don't get sick.

And hey my dear,if you're reading this; i love you =)

I reli miss hearing that.

Hohoho!

2009-11-21T21:15:00.002+08:00

=D
I'm sorry for not updating like in a long time!
I promise i'll do it these few days.. glad to say i have lots of pictures and stuff going on that i can talk about.. Hehe..

But...

The main point i wanna talk about is, can you forgive a past mistake that was done to you on purpose? I was just surfing my friends' pictures on facebook and i saw someone whom i completely forgotten her existance. As usual, the memories came flooding back. You said you were my fren and all that. But you still hurt me. With words and acts. That was three years ago.
I tried to forget and forgive. And guess what, when i looked at her pictures... i felt absolutely nothing. NOTHING.

Why?

Because i forgiven her. The past doesn't matter anymore. Mistakes are done and the trust is now gone. I'm sorry but i hope i'll never meet you again. You caused enough pain for me and i never wish to cross paths with you again. And i'm sorry,we can't just be friends like that again. Because i had a taste of being friends with you and it wasn't a nice one. So, lets just leave things the way it is.
We're better off not knowing each other. I really have to tell you this because i feel that its how we should be. I'm really sorry.

Ps: wait for my updates peeps! =)

A Great Big Hug

2009-11-09T18:49:00.003+08:00

I am so tiredddd. Its been a terribly long week!
I have pictures but i'll skip them today. Just wait for the weekends.
I'm starting my clinical placements for 3 weeks starting next Monday at Ananda.
Lucky its only Monday to Friday,because if you take Saturday and Sunday away...
you'll get a pretty insane Geraldine.

A lot of things happened this week. Hmmmm where do i start?
I guess i'll skip the rest for today.
Because i just wanted to say something to him..random thought in my mind...
My other half has been in quite a sad position,someone really dear to him passed away.
I'm really sorry to hear about that. I just feel kinda bad that i'm not there to be with him.
I can't do anything but be with him spiritually. It sucks to be so far away at the wrong time.
I reli hope you're doing alright. *lots of hugs*
I'm sorry i'm not by your side..
I'm sorry that i can't wipe your tears [i doubt u cried much,i know you're strong]
But most of all i'm sorry that i can't give you a biggggggg hug.

You stay strong dear,i know you can.
If you can break the metal cup holder off the cinema's chair last year,[OOPPPS. I SPILLED YOUR SECRET =p] i know you surely will get up and continue again.
I love you with all my heart =)

Bits and Pieces

2009-11-03T19:41:00.017+08:00

Another new month's in the house! One just flew by,another comes.
I wonder when will the day come where i can take a deep breath?
My head's in a mess.
Anyway,after hectic hectic hectic week...
Saturday we went to shopping!
Went to Ikea and Habourtown.
Ooops Chua's missing. He sat in front to check out the hot chicks.
=p
Just kidding,there's just not enough room to squeeze him in.
Guess where we went after that?
YES. The beach!
Glenelg's the name. And oh my gosh,we weren't dressed for it.
It was a totally spontaneous trip since we were already on the way.
Which explains why u'll find a group of ppl wearing jeans to the beach.
Its seriously forbidden to wear jeans at aussie beaches,alright? =p especially when the sun's so nice... Do not ever follow us ^^
Me and Michelle ^^

I love this photo,but my mouth was opened. Gaaaahhhh.

I wonder who snapped this. Its nice,and candid. If you wonder why aussie sun's so deadly hot,its because sometimes there's not even a thread of cloud in the sky!

Me and Caroline =)

They decided to bully me. U see,so pity.

Helen, Kong and me.

There's actually a plane in the air and we were supposed to SOS the plane.

I did an individual jump shot but not niceeeeee,cuz i jumped too low.

So group pic replaces it..hehe..

Finally saw u Chua,so pity. He became the camera man.

That's basically the pictures for Saturday.

Heeeee,if u want more u can check it out on facebook after i uploaded it..

Not now though,during the weekends =)

So much is running through my mind at the moment.

I think i maybe having moodswings.

Its either that or i'm too tired. Because i feel like crying again.

And that's not really healthy i guess.

I just wish that he was here so i can blurt out everything.

I appreciate u sending that email so i know. And yes,i reli do miss you a lot.

hmmmm,i hope that i am as happy as i look in the pictures above~

But things just take a toll on me these these few days.

I kinda forgot what i wanted to type here earlier on.

I do think my auntie flow's on the way,which explains the sudden mood change.

But because i know you're all dying to know what life is here,i'll write another post =)
After all,life continues on and i just have to pick up the bits and pieces.

And my dear,take care of yourself.

Be strong and keep holding on.

I love you. Remember that.. =)

2009-11-02T20:54:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps!!
I'm going to update these few days so don't fret when u keep coming to my page and seeing nothing new... =p
I promise you this.. hehe..
Ps: i miss you ^^ very much...

Andddddd iiiiii...will always....

2009-10-25T19:35:00.017+08:00

Thursday, 22 October

Going to Ananda again tomorrow for Friday placements. Every Friday’s such a pain because I have to convince myself over and over again. Sometimes I would like to give myself a good shake and scream at myself. That’s a good idea, don’t u think so? I’m surprised how time manages to flies when u need more time. And when u really want time to past fast, it annoys you by passing ever so slowly.

Our temporary door sign ^^

Had a bruise on my wrist...

Friday, 23 October

I am super tired!
I need to SLEEP.
I am talking crap.
Not making any logical sense.
I just want to drop on the bed and SLEEP. =)
I admit it, I’m a pig. ^^

Saturday, 24 October

Went to Marino beach today. Err, actually I’m not so sure how to spell the name. Someone said its Brighton, another said Marina. Well, lets just leave the name part at that. I don’t care about the name =p We took a train via Adelaide Railway Station and…
Thing is, I went to the beach and had fun for a while. We went the wrong way at first…then it started to drizzle. But finally got the right way and played away. The water was so colddddddddddddd!

Ate dinner at Hungry Jacks. I’m full! I’m still rather tired after sleeping until quite late this morning. Really lacking sleep…

Someone really close to me and my family will be going back to Indonesia tomorrow. Nearly 16 years of being part of my family. I’ll miss you, Kak Yati. I’ll miss chatting with you after church every Sunday. Every party you’ll cook something really nice which makes me drool. Every time I overnight at Sonia’s house, you’ll feed me full with drinks and snacks. You picked the stones out from my knee when I injured myself pretty badly. I grew up knowing you and it’s sad that you have to go home. Its been 16 long years, Kak.
Sorry I’m not there for your farewell party tonight. But I had a great conference call and webcamming with you all during the party. But as the saying goes…

Far the distance, close at heart. =) Take care of yourself, Kak.
I’ll visit you when I go back for the holidays.

A happy koala! =p

Ohhhh mummy i miss you!

And my bro too,in the black shirt...

And daddy... =)

Brought lots of junk food so i have sugarrrrrrrrr when i need it.

Blue's missing,so use my pendrive. Hehe..

Gummy kisses!

I have this song stuck in my head at the moment...

Whitney Houston-I Will Always Love You.

Yessssss,that very old song...

I just don't know why but it's rewinding in my head.... Probably because the song says what i wanna say.

I will always love you.

I wish i can hear it said to me everyday.

Missing You!

2009-10-20T19:25:00.002+08:00

Just some random photo from today =)
Yerrrr,i think i got some kind of motor neurone problem,my hand keep shaking when taking this pic..
Just a little update here to say that i'm alright and still alive...
Though a bit annoyed by my laptop. Its acting weird lately..
Stupid hard disk problem. I hate it when technology fails you,its just frustrating.
Hahaha..

Happy 19th October =)

2009-10-18T21:30:00.004+08:00

Haaaaa! How many people are guilty of not remembering my face? =p
Nahhh,since i'm so nice i shall put a picture of me on Friday at Ananda doing my Friday worksite practicals..well,actually i was in the toilet when i took this. Can't take pictures in Ananda itself as its a healthcare facilty.
No no no no NOOOO,my hair isn't blond. Its the lighting =)
Its still dark chocolate the way it was before i left..
So many new things to learn,things i never imagine i will learn.. Did u noe shit/poop/faeces has 8 types? [if i remembered correctly] And i actually showered someone besides myself. ==
Anddddddd... today's a special day for me ^^
Its.....an anniversary of mine and my significant other half =)
First date,hehe..
And to celebrate [myself and friends],i ate...
THIS =D
Domino's pizza! I gave 2 slices away to Helen and Kong and ate the rest.. this is what's left, 4 pieces. We were waiting for the delivery like waiting for boyfriends,and when the "boyfriend" (the pizza) finally came,we ran out screaming like little girls.
My "boyfriend" name was Cheese and Michelle didn't knew her "boyfriend" name because it was ordered by someone else. Turns out the name is Hawaii. [SWEAT]
These remaining pizza shall be my breakfast,ohh yeah~ [I'll eat your share for you,dear =p]
Anyways,Happy 19th October!
Don't busy yrself so much and lose more hair,i still wanna comb for you,you know.
Take care and miss youuuuuu.
And of course,i love you too. =)

ps: Class tomorrow. Hahahahaha,i wanna continue sleeping and skip class but i can't. aawwwhhhh,nevermind. My body's in class and my soul's in bed. Ehhh,cannot..... gt test tomorrow!!! =(

Silent Tears...

2009-10-15T18:17:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday, i got to spend some time out with Ivan, Esther and Carina.
Feels so good to be able to see some greenian people =)
Even got to know a new friend too,which is Carina. Sat at a coffeeshop and talked for 4 and a half hours,after that went to dinner. They're havin exams soon,so good luck guys!
Sunday, as usual i went to church. St Francis Xavier,Adelaide. Had to walk there as trams still under construction. Not that far though, about 10-15 minutes walk from Rundle Mall.

Met up with a friend of mine, Cindy, and she gave me this as a welcoming present. Awww,thanks =) I don't know what to use it for yet,a bit too nice to hang stuff on it >.< We then slept at the library.. Well, me actually... she was doing her research and i was zzzz-ing away next to her and her friend. Her exams are coming soon too,so all the best girl!

Got a can of drinking chocolate for myself too ^^

I know i'll surely get murdered if i keep drinking cold things as somebody will surely kill me.

[Yes,i mean u... Uncle Sky =p]

Its amazing how days pass and makes you feel so small.

I honestly do feel homesick at the moment, again.

My heart just keeps aching and i don't know how to fix it.

I can't help but keep thinking and missing and dreaming.

It gets pretty emotional at times and i really do feel like crying.

Even when i'm typing this post, i feel it.

Things just get pretty tough when you're alone. I'm not used to this.

Comfort has always been around me when i was back in Msia,but here, the only place for me to let go is my room. In front of my laptop,under my blankets, muffled by my pillow.....

The silent tears fall.

I cannot explain further and you surely can't know truely unless yr far away from home too.

So here's to those that are away from home to study/work, we deserve a pat on the back.

And i just realised that i owe Uncle Sky a lot of pictures which are still in my camera and phone!

Oh no.... . . . . =p

Its tough but i'm gonna hold on and be strong. As someone i loved so much told me when i was at KLIA waiting for my plane, "Try to be tough girl you can do it! Believe yourself." Those were his exact words and i'm sure he won't remember that he ever said that to me. But those words kept me from falling. Especially when it came from someone that means the whole world to me.

I love you, and always will.

And Today is....

2009-10-08T20:41:00.002+08:00

30 days. I've been here for 30 days.
It feels quite long since i last pulled my heavy luggages and walk heavy heartedly to the plane.

I carried a koala. Feed kangaroos. Saw all kind of animals including penguins.
Had cheese, went to see Adelaide at Mount Lofty, went to Handorf, ate honeycomb.
Went to the city alone, shivered when the wind starts to blow, went to the beach.
Went to the library, spoke with Australian people with an accent, laugh all the way.
Studying aged care at the moment,learning new skills everyday.
Brought things with another currency. [have to not think abt $1=Rm3]
Learnt how to cry till i can't breathe due to missing home.
Stood up for 8 hours at Ananda working friday placements.
Eating breakfast [i never do back at home]
Going to get sick really soon.
Attended mass at a new church besides in Kuching.

I can't continue listing because i'll run out of space. I've learn quite a lot since i'm here..
About people, cultures, thinking, career and surprisingly myself.
I found out strengths i didn't know i had. I found out my soft spot [which is homesickness].
I really do miss home and everybody. Just feels weird when you're alone here far far far away.
My first thought when i came here was "Where am i? What am i doing here?".
It wasn't easy watching my dad walk away from me to fly back home, to the place i really wanted to be.
It wasn't easy growing up while i was here. It's certainly not easy typing this now.
I can't express this aching feeling lingering in my chest everytime i think of home.
Everytime i think of people back home. Dad, Mum, Joshua, Grandpa,Grandma, Kuku, cousins, uncles, aunts, Hugh, Delton, Cass, Chris, Fran, Liping, Angelna, Kav, Mo, frens, 5s5, Mel, Sherry, Sonia and ect..

But most of all, i really do miss my boyfriend, my other half.[haha,believe it. This is the first time i said boyfriend in my post.]
I just miss that face. Those hugs. That voice. The smile. And that familiar naughty smack on my head.

There's so much to miss i can't even mention it out.
This little girl had grown up now. Is still growing.
Will keep continue growing.
I can't say for sure what tomorrow holds for me but i sure hope that i will be strong enough.

I am tempted to hop on the next plane home to Malaysia and run to my warm bed at home crying. But i can't. Because its a new chapter of my life for now.
Who's gonna join me next?

ps: a message to my bf; miss you so much =)

There's Nothing That Can Replace Home

2009-10-05T21:19:00.004+08:00

Friday,2 Oct

Today was the first visit to Ananda Residential Care. It turned out better than I thought it would be. I was expecting deadly looking people walking along dark corridors…that sort of creepy scene from horror movies. Ananda is a very nice place, facilities are good. We did our observation today and even helped out a bit. I and Iveta [the European girl] was placed at Darling Wing which was mainly people with dementia. Saw a lot of interesting things! Saw some beautiful purple coloured things outside and there I go again….. snapping pictures ^^

Saturday,3 Oct

I spent my WHOLE day sleeping. I had to catch up on my rest since the whole week has been crazy. Pretty soon it’ll get worst, I assume. I managed to finish some assignments and still watch movie wit my roommate. Finish the day with supper. =) A hungry gal’s gotta eat, you know! SOMEBODY GIVE ME MOTIVATION!

Sunday, 4 Oct

I went to the city alone today. Its pretty scary walking alone by yourself in a new place. Wasn’t that bad though, found my way around somehow. Made my way to Victoria Square to go to church and meet up with a long time friend of mine. She’s so tall now! She brought her 2 girlfriends and a guy fren along and we had lunch together. Walked along Rundle Mall and went for lunch at a place which I did not catch the name. GOSH. I need to learn laaa. Dropped by my friend’s house for steamboat. Daylight saving starts today…so I am officially 2 and a half hours faster than Malaysia.

Monday, 5 Oct

Today is Labours Day so it’s a holiday =) Quite weird, because I celebrated two Labours Day this year…Hehe.. Count myself lucky. So holidays, what does that mean? SLEEP IN LATE again of course! Now I know why people in colleges and universities loves holidays! I’m quite tired actually. Not so much physically but more towards mentally and spiritually. A temporary break is good…
Trust me, u won’t wanna face me when I lack sleep. =D

Been emailing with my other half and i seriously appreciate emails better now,i miss him a LOT.
Wanna cry already.

Got an sms from Hugh few mins ago and it reli made me wanna cry/smile, i also don't know!.. Friends really do make a difference in one's life.

I miss u Hugh.. I miss my usual gang.

I really do. There's just something missing here with me.

Its you guys.

Updates ^^

2009-10-01T20:28:00.002+08:00

We went to Aldgate again on Monday... =) The second time’s fun now that we knew most of them already. Vera wasn’t here today, but I was with Rene today. Had morning tea with them, I love the hot chocolate drink! After that, we played two kinds of games, which was quite new to us since I never played these games before. Had a little introduction about each of us after that and then off to lunch. And after my lunch, we had this thing called dumper, with a very long story to its name. It’s made out of flour and water. Taste like muffins but they eat it with cream, jam or butter. Very nice and filling! Then me and my course mates decided to play with Tess, her fur’s really beautiful. Had a great goodbye with them and took a few pics too, welllll….you know me…=p
It was a very nice day =)
Going to Ananda tomorrow for observations... Having holiday on Monday! At last, a day to catch up with myself....
I miss you people.. =3

Don't Let Me Be The Last To Know

2009-09-26T23:50:00.003+08:00

SATURDAY
Passed my senior first aid today. Supposed to be happy,but i'm not. I don't know if this is just a bad week or what but one of my classmates broke down today during class too. Is it exhaustion or simply bad timing? And then, i heard and read even more bad news.

Its sucks okay. It sucks being so far and not knowing what's going on.
It sucks to be the last to know. I hate it.
Just because i'm in another continent and you might just assume i'm busy but i do have the time for important news like this. I have the time for you. I have the time for u guys.
Email,i check it everyday. Call,i'm here. Sms,i'll reply. NO excuses.
Don't just leave stuff like this to the very end or me finding out myself.
I feel utterly useless. And broken.
I hate finding out someone i know is dead sick and i might never have the chance to see that person again.
Do you know how it feels to receive such news after a few days?
I can't explain how broken i am at the moment.

All i wanna do is sit in a corner,hug my knees and just cry.
Combined with my own problems and the fact that i was the last to know,there's only so much a girl can take.
Especially when she's alone.

ps: Thanks Delton,for listening to me. I appreciate it. And i owe u lots,glad to have u as a friend.

2009-09-25T23:13:00.003+08:00

THURSDAY
Senior First aid! I was at shocked at how simple it is. I thought you had to check for pulse and all that. But the golden rule here is, if there are no signs of life and there’s no breathing, then straight proceed with CPR.

I have to say the Australian Resuscitation Council made first aid very simple, user friendly and straight to the main point. It’s super nice having a small class because you can ask a lot of questions and get all the attention from the trainer.

Found out that a friend of mine isn’t feeling well and might need surgery. I hope you’re going to be okay boy, just hang in there. =) Ask my dad for help if you need anything.
Things like this really do give me more motivation to study and try to be the best I can. So Geraldine, study hard!

FRIDAY
I don’t know if its exhaustion or the fact that I received some pretty bad news…because I simply broke down and cry during lunch break today. Sorry if I scared you guys.

Went to apologize to Mandy, the first aid trainer because my mind kept wandering off during the first few hours. She gave me a hug after I told her what happened. Really felt much better after that. After lunch, had first assessment and I passed =)

Its just too much when you’re just starting to settle down then receive such news. Maybe it was the coffee that woke me up from my shock. Mandy said something that made me think. She said she admired that we had the strength to come to a new country alone and away from the comforts of home.

Then a friend of mine recently told me “Haiyo, its not that terrible la. Stop making such a big fuss. Its just exactly like being in Kuching. Where got any difference? I think I will adapt myself just fine. D weather, people, food, culture is the same around the whole world. No such thing as homesickness.” Those were her exact words in msn.

Honestly what I think? She can say all she wants. Just as long as I know what I’m going thru. Nobody’s right or wrong. It’s just the way how you as an individual see things. It’s just the beginning. Soon I’ll be laughing away at myself and maybe helping someone whom is going thru this stage of life as well.
My ♥ is what gets me through.
God, family, friends and my other half.

Ps: Super Girl by Super Junior is ♥
=)

Coldddd,ppprrhhh~

2009-09-23T21:58:00.002+08:00

I am actually studying hard,haha. Wonder what happened to the lazy girl back at secondary school.. I suddenly don't like to see my assignments lying around undone...
Think maybe i've gone crazy after all. =p

By the way,i passed my manual handling today! =)
Happy happy~ Going to sit for my senior first aid on Saturday.
Ohhh man,which means that this Saturday got class..sad case. Still thinking of sleeping the Saturday away. Haihhsss. And i also got my set of key for our room. Yay,now we both have a key!!
Anyone knows what is daylight saving?
Daylight saving time (also called DST, or Summer Time) is the local time a region is designated for a portion of the year, usually an hour forward from its standard official time.

It is a system intended to "save" daylight (as opposed to wasting it by, say, sleeping while the sun shines). The official time is adjusted forward during the spring and summer months, so that the active hours of work and school will better match the hours of daylight.

Which means on the 4th October,i'm going to be 2 and a half hours ahead of Malaysia instead of 1 and a half hours.

Kinda sad about it.

Don't worry if your're blurr,i'll explain in my next post.

And my other half,i miss u soooooo =)

You've Gotta Be Here Darling.

2009-09-19T23:13:00.032+08:00

We went for a day trip today! =) Was so happy because at the wildlife centre,i got to hug a koala!
And you do noe i love koalas!

I so pity him... he has 4 girls to compete with. Oh yeah,he's older than me by a day. Haha..

Cute ehhh? So soft the fur! I wanna steal one back with me ^^ to replace my pillow in Malaysia..

Ohhhh look ANGEL,its penguins!

Some more koalas... aaaaaaahhh so cute and cuddly. But their claws are so sharp!

You do not want to step on this,cuz it stinks a lot! But hey,its everywhere on the grass. Don't worry u get to wash it off later once you finish the track..

I think the kangaroo must be thinking,aaaaiks... why does she feed me so little? I'm so hungryyyy...

Awww sorry dear,i kissed a kangaroo today. Don't worry,air kisses of course. =p

Seems familiar this person? Caroline Kam =)

Its very scary one they corner you like this. They're actually taller than me!

We're loving the spring sun!

Saw lots of sheeps ^^

Brought chocolates!

Then,we went to Hanhdorf,which is a German town.

Had an extremely heavy lunch...buffet style..

Dish One..

Dish 2

Dish 3

Dish 4
I'm afraid that's all i can manage...

Oh no,i got stuck in the ground.
Went to Mt Lofty after that..

And then went to a waterfall...

Wahhh,kinda tired. Whole day went out. Hmmm. I kinda feel emo in the bus.. haha,just wishing u guys can just be here and see for yrself.

Especially my frens! Its so lonely here without my gang.

I miss those laughs and outings.

I think i better go to sleep,ease my aching heart a bit.

These love novels are making my heart feel very achy.

Happy Raya people!

With You

2009-09-18T21:09:00.004+08:00

I went to Algates' today.. Its a day care facility for old people.. Very nice,they have activities to do for the morning until 2 in the afternoon... I loved talking to Vera,one of the clients.. Sat next to her during physio exercise.. It was lovely talking to someone older and get to talk to her.. Old people are not senile all the time,okay. I also got the chance to massage one of the client's feet.. he has knee injury before and we have to be really careful.. My hand still smells like lotion! We were rather quiet though,there's only 4 of us.. SMALL CLASS is super excruciating but nice at the same time..

We were attracted to the mek mek in the facility... Sheep,i mean. Hehe...

Being the kid that i was,haha... =)

It was a nice day.. Got lost in the city,walked around big big circles.

Got to use my ANZ atm card,its diff then msian one!

Went to Chinatown,got green tea and Hello Panda for snacks.

Went to library to lend a few love novels to read. [i did mention the lib is nice?]

I love romance novel,makes me think "ooohhh,i'm so happy i have him."

Aaahhh,i miss u so much.

I'll email you to update you too,i owe u lots of pictures!

You won't be alone for raya,trust me.

After all,my heart's with you all the time =)

Going Insane

2009-09-17T19:41:00.006+08:00

Hey =D
MONDAY
First day of class! I love the skills lab =) its like a mini hospital..haha.. Learnt how to make a bed,hospital style.. Not as easy as it looks.. Now i understand that.. Lots of reading to do! Learnt new things about Aussie too =) Meet Fiona,one of our lecturer today...
Owwwhhh by the way,life here is great =)
I've been clubbing all nights long since i've been here. See my drink? =D

Nahhh,i was just kidding! Its cranberry juice.. =) Very healthy and certainly no clubbing at the moment... so don't worry...
TUESDAY

We switched to single beds today instead of the queen size bed. Now,we have a king size bed after putting both together! Met Paula,another lecturer today. Moodswings today. =(

Me and my husband,Mr Smith. Me and Michelle were fighting over the two Mr.Smith in the lab.

Meooowwww,catfight! A friendly catfight..^^

And this is Mrs.Smith! =) She's a balloon,haha..

THURSDAY

Had class with another lecturer,Amy. I love her! She tells us about her experiences and life as a nurse.. Anddddddd,i had the chance to take....

Beautiful snaps!

Spring is here! Still cold... brrrrrrr~

Anyways,i am in a state where i can feel alright one day and down the next. Hmmm... am i normal?
Missing my frens,family at home.

Miss him.

Miss my smelly pillow.
I have a lot to sayyyy,a lot on my mind.

But i can't. Just holding back my tears and try to bear with it.

Its my first time being so far away from the comforts of home.

Far from people i love. Things i love.

Memories. Places.

Its nice to be in another place and experience new things.

But there's certainly no place like home.

No people like you guys,no guy like him and,no bed as comfy as mine.

And i miss that.

I wish this sweater was you.

2009-09-13T19:14:00.004+08:00

Heeee,sundays! =)
I overslept till nearly 12.30pm and missed my lunch.. Had kiwis and hot chocolate for replacement meal though,so it wasn't that bad..
This is a picture i owe Christine ^^ i missed it out the other day.. I hug it to sleep now dear,so no worries... of cuz i stil remember you! Miss ya lots babe,wish u were here.

I had a look through my schedule and i was like "wwwwwwwwwaaahhhh". Confirm die already.. classes are so packed and placement starts in November. I hope i can cope with it.. We're catching up with the previous batch for Diploma because we're small in number,only 5 people... imagine that! That's why we're having shortage of nurses ^^ But beware of English,its reli important here. I have to start cutting out my slangs already. But its still okay to use them here while i'm blogging??!

My piggybank from the ANZ bank and my new shades =) I forgotten to mention that here,1 and 2 dollars are in coins.. the rest are in notes... so,i'm thankful for the pig... hehe...

Class is starting tomorrow... I'm a little nervous. Its like my first day of class after how many months of holidays,this is where it all starts. Oh yeah,i missed out on church today. Hmmm,i better go next week. Just need to master the skill of transportation since its reli different here. Can't wait for the field trip on Saturday! I get to see koalas and kangaroos! Feel a little homesick today. I think i need more work to keep me busy so i don't keep thinking.

I miss your hugs,i really do.

I wish this sweater was you.

Happy 12th September =)

2009-09-12T13:53:00.022+08:00

Its spring here! Sooo,the temperature will be warmer than when i first arrived. Huhu,happy me =) Its been reli cold everytime d wind blows... Even with the heater on in the bath,i'll still scream...hehe.. Thank God everytime we use the toilets,no one's there.. Or else it'll be pretty embarassing...

I honestly feel having a roommate makes things better... Because these few days we've been laughing and laughing and laughing away in our room... It helps keep us happy^^..we joke around and talk.. There was one night where the guy opposite our room knocked on our door and then went back into his room... I guess it's cuz we were too noisy,hehe.. i pity him because we're girls..mwahaha... And yes,this block is shared genders.. But no worries,cctv is watched =)

Yesterday,the 11th sept which was a friday,we had a short city tour... One of the places we went to was the library. Its just so nice,how everything's free... and there's so many books,novels,dvds,cds,mags,newspapers and all that... Its really different than Malaysia here... The library itself is so complete.. We're even eligible to use other universities' libraries... and medical books are so much around so i'll be very happy during my field works. Free wireless,unlimited time and a comfy place... And guess what,there's a corner..

It looks like it just came out from a movie scene or something! =) its super quiet here... i'll consider this wing to do my studies..

Had a tasting session... Chocolates! Their dark chocolates are super nice,you don't even think its dark..

Also took a picture with the biggest bear i've ever seen in my life!

This is the market... Its super clean here... oh ya,this is where i took pictures with the bear..

Lots of fresh fruits including fruits i've never seen before..lols... did u noe paw paw is papaya? =p

And...onions! Its so biggggg i think i only need to buy three for my mum and she'll be happy..
There are also clothes shop,pharmacies,cafes,and all different sorts of shop..

This is Victoria Square... Well,only part of it.. I like this view,so i took it ^^ This is where we took the tram,which is free in the city to the beach.. I really have to get used to the culture.. Like greeting people and all that..

Yay,the beach! =) The sun's quite hot because the clouds were so few..

When i saw this,i really missed him. I wish he was here.. I have lots to tell him. Arrgghh. Just the thought of it makes me sway. Gosh. I reli miss him. REALLY DO.

Michelle said we turn ang moh kias already... haiyo,no larh... We're still the same noisy Malaysian girls =) only the sun here is making our hair really stand out..

ps: sunglasses,sunblock and mosturiser here is crutial because of the weather...

I absolutely love the skies here! The clouds change patterns fast and sometimes its just blue sky.

This is for you,my other half ^^ Happy 12th September,love you sooooo much! Not forgetting, This for all of you at home =) hehe... I know my mum's a bit sad now that she's lonely... Awwww mummy,i'll get my msn and proxy problems solved and then we can chat =) Miss everyone here. I don't know how many times i mentioned that actually..

My dad asked me to sell this to Shell.. HARHAR.

And today,Michelle,Kong and me walked up to the Morialta Conservation Park which is just behind our school...Its a nice place...

Very nice for photography!

And then a kind stranger told us something... We looked up and saw...

Daddy left for Malaysia today. =( so sad. By the way,that's John... My English lecturer.. I would be lying if i said i didn't cry when my dad left. He actually teared up too. Aihhsss. I'll see you soon Daddy. I'll see you soon too,Malaysia. I'm starting my classes tomorrow... Am a bit mixed on this. But well,i have to pick up myself and continue on with this struggle. Someone told me to take this as a long holiday. Honestly,i just can't wait for it to be over. And it hasn't even started. Haha... Its just tough being alone in a foreign land. You're on your own. An adult. But,its not easy being here and i appreciate that i have my chance. Just i need some reminding every now and then... so... i do count on you guys to remind me!

Miss Me Yet?

2009-09-09T22:04:00.008+08:00

Thanks to all who sent me off at the airport on Monday..
Ralph,Christine,Hugh,Delton,Francisca,Liping,Cassandra,Mary,Jushiu and Eileen >..< too =")">.<>

My messy desk >.<

Daddy brought for me =) warm waterrrrr...

Adaptor,i'm using now... haha... its not transparent okay... just the packaging..

my books!

Molesting Michelle's panda!

TUESDAY 8th September
Reached early in the morning and had the day off.. So we unpacked a little.. I was okay in the morning but in the afternoon,my mood totally changed. I lay in bed and just cried. Michelle was crying too. And we fell asleep after that.. Was busy with laptop and internet stuff after dinner… Had self-supper at night before sleep =) The dining area is open 24/7 so we can easily grab stuff to drink.. Eat however,is on your own… HAHA. The thing is,the houses here DO NOT have fences or gates. COOL! If this was Malaysia,sure the cars gone already. Aiks,my lips are cracking. Its still cold from winter. Spring however is approaching,as cherry blossoms are blossoming ^^

WEDNESDAY 7th September
Today was first day of orientation..Sessions with the lecturers and principal.. We address them by using first names like John[my English lecturer].. He said,Australians emphasize respect and not forced titled respect like Mr Mrs Miss ect.. Had to fill up forms for national police check,banking and all that. Dropped by the bank to open an account ,by K Mart to buy stuff like adaptors,mosturiser and sunscreen,by All Phones to buy aussie simcard. I will let you know my handphone number personally =D Can u believe it? U buy it for $29.95 and u get $300 credit inside! Also gotten my books today,eeekkkk they’re so heavy… And mind you,this is only for Cert III:Aged Care! And oh yea,our current class is smallest in history of this college..5 students only! 3 Malaysian girls,1 Malaysian guy and 1 Russian girl. We’ll combine with Caroline’s class for Diploma in January. Gotta go clean my messy desk and stuff now… miss you all at home! Miss me yet,anyone? I miss you,my other half =(

I Just Wanna Be Strong

2009-09-06T22:07:00.012+08:00

Been super busy these few days! I guess i'll have to edit this post again once i'm settled..
THURSDAY
-Went to Elephant to eat..
-Went out the whole day around and about
-Took a lot of pictures but super limited time to upload...
FRIDAY
-cleaned my room
-went out shopping the whole day for groceries
-went visiting at Uncle James's laundry shop

I'll really miss my room and my queen size bed. Means,no more rolling as i have to do with a single bed over there..

See,i started packing... SO MUCH STUFF.

Went to Wan Jia and Guardians... Urggh,so messy... Let me arrange it...

That's better =)
SATURDAY

-had breakfast with Auntie Irene and Jesmine

-had steamboat with family

-went to Boulevard to shop for last minute things...

-had Sushi King for supper

-typing things for daddy

SUNDAY

-woke up super early for photoshoot

-went for Coffee Morning at church with the youth,had kolomee and coffee for breakfast ^^

-went to Boulevard again

-went to church

-visit Ku Poh

-home,to blog and pack my things

-had kuehtiaw for dinner

-gonna have milkshake for supper later

-continue packing

This was from my camera unedited.. Can't get the shoots from the photographer yet.. Hope daddy will email it to me once they done it..

Casual wear shoot. Haha,with my camera again...unedited..

Farewell shoot with partial of my big "family".. The rest was so scattered about..

Oh ya,Auntie June's back from Canada until the 25th Sept.. Sadly,i can't join in for ladies night....=(

My dinner.

Lots of photos,but no time to upload at the moment...sorry people. I'll edit this post again..

Thanks to everyone who wished me..

Thanks to all the aunties and uncles no matter whether we're related or not,for giving me angpaos,presents,pictures and a great time..

Thanks to my frens who gave me the time of my life,outings,treated me out for food,movies and shopping sprees..

Thanks to my gang sama palak for keeping me sane,bringing me out,listening to my every complains and sighs and just being there for me..

Thanks to mah love for just being there for me,because without you i will not be me.

Thanks to God for everything in my life today.

And thanks to everyone that i didn't mentioned yet,for just being in my life.

I don't know how to express how i feel at the moment.

Its just kinda hard. Baby steps,Geraldine!

My flight's tomorrow..2.05pm to KL and 9.50pm to Adelaide.

I just wanna be strong,*prays* i just wanna be strong.

Blowing Kisses

2009-09-02T23:37:00.002+08:00

I... am trying to be strong.
I... am trying nt to cry because yr nt here.
I... am trying my best to eat one of the 5 mentos you gave.
I... am crying over taiwan love story drama that i've watched over and over ages ago..
I... am giving excuses to stay in my room so i won't have to go down with red eyes.
I... am missing you.
~Nahhhh,blowing kisses for you~
I can't understand.
Its been a lot of times you come home and then go over to study again.
But somehow i never can stop myself from feeling this way.
Waaahhh. This heavy heart of mine =(
Time for me to go into recovery period now.

Take care dear,i'm missing you.
Already~

Happy Birthday ♥

2009-09-01T11:28:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday to.... =)
I forgotten how many times i wished you already,haha... ^^

I feel so guilty for not updating. EEEEkkk. =3
i'm sorryyyyy,been busy these few days..out and about..
Where shall i start... i went shopping again,for things that i need..
Now only groceries left.. and a few more items that i cannot mention >.< Makeup from The Face Shop [its Korean stuff!,i just noticed..] Gonna go back for moreeeee!
Socks from 3 Dots are seriously tempting with their colour range... i feel like grabbing one of every colour.. =p

I even had people bringing me around for food i won't be seeing much of for a few months..

Yum yummmm =) don't worry my noodles,i'll be back for you!

Its September already. Whoa,so fast.

In just a few days,another phase of life is about to begin.

This is my ambition,my interest and what i wanted.

I can't wait to study and finally be able to say "Damn assignments".

I can't wait to share a room with Michelle and get to know new places,culture and people.

But i'll be on another continent. Away from the comforts of home.

Away from family i love,frens i hang out with.

Away from my other half...da love of mah lifeeeee. ♥

It stings just to think about it.

But i'm not gonna make anyone worry about me.

I'm going to study hard and play hard too.

I'm gonna be independant.

I'm gonna keep in touch with people i love,emails...webcam..facebook..sms..calls..blogging.

I'm gonna be back for holidays often..

I'm gonna finish my course, get my butt back, get a good job and certainly every girl wants to settle down with the love of her life! =)

I'm gonna be the best i ever can.

ps: if i ever fail to remember,please remind me =p

Thanks For The Memories =)

2009-08-29T02:43:00.008+08:00

On Thursday,spring it is! =)
I dun mean d season... i meant the place... Cass,Del,Hugh and yrs truely went to spring for shopping ^^
Del needed to get his formal wear for presentation and i needed to get a few things before going..
He was so happy to get his padini black shirt! Ooowhhh the joy of sales!
After that,we zoomed off to 175' but was sadly,told that the back area was for smokers. =(

Sad as we were,we head off to Memories for dinner =)
At least,it was in the same area.. And i drank.....
Beer =D *credits to Hugh for this pic*

No larh,actually it was coke. Sweat. Hehe.. dun ask about this picture. I purposely had it upside down to show the words in a different angle.

Its a nice place to have dinner =D

Meet my turkey ham sandwich with fries and salad ^^ *credit to Hugh again*

Yumm yummmm diggin into mah food ^^

Minutes later,i got kidnapped.

YES. KIDNAPPED.

I sat on a different car with a different person and went to catch a movie =)

Extremely early breakfast too!

Awwww car rides when its drizzling is so heart moving.

Especially when u have two orang sewel in the car singing endless tunes.

Shorts,a tee shirt and a cube of makeup from Elianto.. =) Am happy for the meantime while longing for another session ^^

I am spending much time with someone it feels like a honeymoon!

Lols. Even had the heart to offer lollipops,knowing that i need sweet stuff when i'm feeling crap.

I think i need someone to punch me so i can sleep.

Its like 3.oo in the morning and i'm still...

Blissfully happy =)

I Love You Too

2009-08-26T01:21:00.003+08:00

We've got a long journey ahead,but that's okay with me =)
As long as it's with you...
I'm sorry i threw a tantrum at you just now..
I'm sorry i didn't tell you what was actually on my mind..
I'm sorry. I just didn't want you to worry.
Was just thinking too much.
I love you too =) with smileys in the "too" like u drew it..

This is us ♥

2009-08-24T02:39:00.002+08:00

Change of song again,hehe...
I ♥ this one so much after listening to it at the cinema..
Tried so hard to find the title.. And success!

I don't need to find a million reasons why..
This is us,this is us,this is how we ♥...
Some ways we're different,but together we're so right..
This is us,this is us...
And this is how we ♥ ...

I am feeling rather emo at the moment,can't seem to sleep.
My lips still hurt and i'm enjoying the pain it causes me.
Because it reminds me that this is real.
You're here. This is real. Not a dream =)

G.I Joe,Duke rules!!!

2009-08-23T02:21:00.003+08:00

Just came back from movie ^^
Hugh scared us at first because d beginning was super ancient-like..said we went to d wrong movie..
G.I Joe is so worth the money! Channing or in the movie,Duke is superrr hot!
Its like d sound effects are so damn good,even d scenes look real..
Best of all,dey managed to add in some romance and comedy in =)
I will certainly consider watching it AGAIN! *drools*
Did i say the guy was hot? =D
I didn't even drink my green tea and Del hardly touch his coke beacause we didn't wanted to skip a scene!

After that,we went for Kuching Fest yet again! Lots of people laa...
Finally had my makimono mix, from a japanese stall.. Ate our dinner/supper beside the lake and karaoke-ing along to d singers.. We even made wishes and threw coins in d water..
My wish was... . . . Am nt supposed to say lei.. =p
LOL,Delton started it! Supposed to go to 175' but fish spa was so full..=( sad sad..

Then,we went for the....car ride! Drove to the new DUN building and then went to the haunted house at Petrajaya.. Hugh suddenly wanted to drive,so Del let him.. Cass and I were like "no difference lei..."

Was happy till i reached home. And i realised,i drank tea. Die la,cannot sleep.
And its 2.30 in the morning. Haihhs.
T.T

Just Breathe Love...

2009-08-22T15:37:00.002+08:00

I just came back from a long day... or at least it seems so,sighss..
Breakfast,driving around [i was NOT the one driving in case yr wondering =D],watching business in action,and talking on the phone a lot wit my parents..
I'm happy though,because i've been worrying about something since Tuesday night..
Turns out,its not anything serious.. But there are a few things that need to be done..
At least,Thank God..!

And i really need to reload,my credit is going downhill today.. =(
Erm,kinda sad though..
My dad had to pick me halfway from SUPP Hall [u must be wondering why SUPP Hall...] today because he didn't understand medical terms,so he needed me to be there..
I had to leave my ''heart'' behind. T.T sob sob..
I miss you,my heart.. [thx for bringing me out today ^^]
Yeah,I can finally breathe now.. =)
Owhh,after that..i bumped into Delton! Had a drink with him at Spring,den decided to msg Hugh and Casey..
Andddddd after last minute decision.. We're gonna watch G.I Joe tonight!! =D
After drink,i followed Del to buy the tickets.. and he had to send me home. Thx Del ^^ i owe u a lot!

Yahhhhhh,my lower lip hurts. DUNNO how come can bite it one. Haha...
Oh man,i just recalled i haven't ate lunch. I better go now or else surely kena scolded later on by
...... . . .
I'm missing my other half. Hmm,take care of my heart =)
And i'll take extremely good care of yours,hehe..

ps: Remember to rest,kolien u so tired keep yawning.. =(

Take My Breath Away..

2009-08-22T01:58:00.002+08:00

I changed my blog song =)
Its a very old song,but i stumble upon it like today when clearing my pc..
The video is rather simple,and at my favourite place: THE BEACH!
And i did promise myself i would play it for my soulmate! Like long long time ago..
This was my "self-comfort" song when i was stil dreaming of who's going to be my prince charming,haha..
Well,here it goes ^^
Just click play on the "Music I'm Loving" section..
Its on manual play because autoplay is annoying. =)

Every waking day,you take my breath away..
With every word you say,you take my breath away..
You look at me that way,baby,come what may..
I hope,that you'll always know..
How you take my breath away...~

I hope you know =)

Lazy Fingers Syndrome...

2009-08-20T23:31:00.006+08:00

I was supposed to be out tonight but cancelled at last minute.. So,finally i can blog!

This week was sooooooo good... Went to Kuching Fest again,went out here and there.. aiyo,i can't tell u hw happy i am..

Happy Birthday to my brother ^^ =)
Well,he's not one yr old.. we just wanted to save the cake from being covered in wax..mwahaha...
His birthday was on the 16th,but we celebrated it a day earlier..^^
The next morning,went to the cancer society fair and spent a lot there..
Hey,it goes to charity so its worth the few hundred bucks.. i wonder where did i put all the food pictures..

But anyway...Saturday went like this...

Damned nice eyy? Its pure chocolate and you can only take a bit at one time because the chocolate will make you all icky.. Unfortunately,thanks to all the "rats" in the house,it was finished in about 3 days.. =D

I had the STRAWBERRY!

And i even got to talk a lot on the phone and hang out at nights... haha,happy happy happy meeee~

I love talking to that person. Ehekkkkkk... =)

And i had a present from last night...

And yes,i drank 'alcohol' ==" YES,sweat.

I love shandy..hehe... but to call it alcohol would be a wrong thing..

Well,someone buy it and i had to finish it..[ oooohh Christine,look its apple flavored! ]

I dare somebody to a drinking match after i turn 18 in December =D... NO EXCUSES.

HEHE.

~~Lol,if we get drunk then... ..... . . . . .~~

I shall not continue that sentence... =D *winks*

Ice Cream Makes A Girl Happy =)

2009-08-18T22:54:00.002+08:00

I am happy =)
Ate a giant ice cream! Well,sad its vanilla and nt chocolate..
I KNOW,it'll make me fat. Sighhhsss.
But i need sugar these few days to cure my mood.. ^^
Self-indulging,u can say...
Aiya,i forgotten laa. No pictures =( sad sad..
awwwwwwwww,remind me to take pictures wei.
I seem to forget myself when i'm enjoying myself. My camera must be so sad.
haha.. anyway,that's all for today.. the next post better have pictures!..
Wanna go back to facebook and mafia away~

=) wait for me,baby!

Sugar,My Heaven...

2009-08-16T22:38:00.006+08:00

Update =)

Haha,i am feeling much better now. Just ate my bro's birthday cake,full of sugar sugar sugarrrrrr~
Sugar always does miracles to me... ^^

Tip to Michelle: Next time,if you see me angry or sad or bla3,just throw me a piece of sweet and i'll be a bit okay =)

But actually,i had something better than sweets and candy ^^
Its.......... . . . . . .

don't tell you guys yet. =D

I shall follow what the wise old person say and go to sleep early.
Well,not now la. Later~ Blueksss!

Harshness Required

2009-08-16T21:45:00.003+08:00

I am SO bloody MOODY right now.
Seriously don't know what's wrong with me..
I feel as if the whole world's just coming down on me and i just lie there flat.
I don't know what to do.
Sit and cry?
Scream and get angry?
I really don't know. I'm super frustrated now.
I don't know what on earth i wanna cry for. Its just this tears reli wanna come out,BAD.
You have gotta hate moodswings and stupid PMS.
Arrrrggghhh. Someone just kill me la.

And to the person who just cannot leave a girl alone,u don't have anything better to do?
Can u just stop bothering me? Its super annoying la,okay?
You're already this annoying without my number,then if u have my number it'll be even worst.
If you noe what's best for yrself,u'll leave me alone and stop spamming my chatbox.
Stop emailing me. Stop everything. Whatever yr intentions are,forget it.
And if u don't want a piece of my mind,get lost.
And to answer your bloody question,yes. You caught me at the wrong time when my hormones are getting the best of me.

But it does not make a difference. You're still annoying and always will be.
Read this again : ALWAYS.

Hugh's fountain of YOUTH..=D

2009-08-13T23:49:00.005+08:00

I made it to Kuching Fest!! =)
We were like crossing fingers and praying so the rain would stop...it was rather heavy..
The only option was... it stop raining or go some other place to eat..

But,it stopped ^^ So thank you to my best friend in heaven,GOD!! =D
Had a noisy car-ride there,busy chatting and laughing..hehe..I reli miss my frens!
At the Garden... owhhhh,shieett. I forgot to take pictures at the bridge,the one near the lake.
Wahhhhh,super romantic there i tell youuuu.

Hugh's fountain of youth =D.

Well,he told us that.... . . .

Can't mention here larh =D Above 18 stuff..

This was a very on the spot picture. Unintentional and spontaneous. If u have kids below the age of 18,close theirs eyes =p

Wait,i'm still 17 myself. So is the person in the picture. Hahahaaaaaa,lets lower the age limit.

This material is not suitable for kids below the age of 12. =p

Nah,its just a joke =D Just to let you know,this picture gained a lot of attention in facebook,my notifications are still going off at the moment while i'm typing this.

Hugh asked us to try this grapes coated with sugar..all sticky and sweet. Nice,but i can't taste my pepsi after that... T.T sob sob..

A happy gang after the whole thing... and then,it rained.. =)

Credits to Christine for the pictures,because my phone cannot seem to connect to my laptop's bluetooth for some reason.. =)

I feel a bit happier now that i've had my dosage of sugar,funny pictures,tasteless drinks and "blowing" the taiwan sausages [U get it? Blowjob? haha].

Haha,gonna go shower and take a well deserved sleep.

I can't stand being angry the whole day =)

A girl's gotta have moodswings in a while,you know. =p

Yeah,whatever.

2009-08-13T15:52:00.002+08:00

I am mad right now. I mean like, why call yourself a friend if u haven't been acting like one?

I call you, you said your busy. Turns out,you were wit yr frens.
I sms you,you never reply. Its because your phone was "out of battery".
I went online,hoping that you were. But you fcking appeared offline.
I went to INTI with Sherry hoping to find u at the library and your frens told me u went home.
We went to your house and your mum said u haven't been back the whole day.
Sherry skip class to look for you,i skip my dance lessons to look for you.
WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT?

When we were online,all you put is busy.
If we do chat,u just reply me few words. What happened to webcam? What is it used for?
What did we do wrong to you,huh?
What did I DO WRONG?

Its not like i don't know okay. You commented on Clement's blog,but not on my blog anymore.
You keep replying George when he smsed u. You even spoke to my bro when he called!

Don't be a coward and hide. You know me better than that. Its just so frustrating.
If you want some room,yeah...fine.

Here's your fcking space.
Its just so frustrating. There's nobody i can talk to right now.
Yeah,whatever. Fine. I'll just keep all my bloody thoughts to myself.

Hello rain,my old friend!

2009-08-10T22:50:00.007+08:00

I went for tennis today =)
Its been a longgggg time and i am getting all rusty wit my skills larh...
Went to Spring alone for some "me" time and....
I gt a hot pink star belt!! =) Was on a good price,RM8.90 only! I wanted the sky blue one,but the buckle was bent... sighss..
Then,i sort of scratch myself on the sharp ends of the escalator and there was like a small gash but bleeding like what..
Quickly went to the washroom and wash it,hoping dt it would clot... Then,a lady came out and washed her hands.
She saw me and gave me a few plasters! Awh,so kind! God bless you!
She said that her plasters was like this because her kids love to use the cartooned ones ^^
Cute,don't u think?

And this, are.... i dunno hw to spell them.. Somethingberries..

They are some sour and some deliciously sweet ones.

I ate this as my dinner. A LOT OF EM. Together with apples,oranges,cucumber and grapes.

=) not much appetite these days,maybe cuz its the weather. I seem more interested in juicy stuff. [Ahem ahem,dun think so far]

And thank God it rained a lil! Although it smells all weird right now,its a bit cooler then the past few days. Amen for that! So don't be surprised if u see Kuching ppl wit facebook status saying "rain" tonight!

If it wasn't the fact that its acid rain , i'll be outside dancing with joy =)

Ehhh shieet. Suddenly i'm thinking about walks in the rain and holding hands. =(

Somebody please smack my head.

The Interview =P

2009-08-09T20:33:00.005+08:00

Haha,i had an "interview" today.
Nope,not a job interview. Wrong again,not a scholarship interview.

The boyfriend interview.

I know,i know... Haha... My dad brought the topic up when we were teasing my brother and his girl fans.

Goes something like this:

*teasing my bro abt his girl fans*
Dad: Ehh you dun laugh so much,what about yrself le? Did Mummy give you the talk yet?
*looks at Mum*
Me: *looks at my plate* Wad talk?
Mum: He asked me to give u THE TALK. As if the mum-daughter talk. *smile*
Dad: Haven't meh? Then later need okay.
Mum: I think its not necessary,she should know already. Need to say what more?
Dad: Aiya,she going soon bahhh. Must at least tell her before she go out and meet guys.
Josh [my bro]: She awal awal got already! U guys outdated nia.
Dad: Is it? Then why didn't bring him back?
Me: *looks at mum*
Mum: He handsome arh? *laughs at me*
Josh: *starts to speak bt i shut his mouth wit a piece of apple*
Dad: Don't like that ma. Must at least let me know so i can sleep in peace knowing that i dun
have to do arranged marriage and u won't be spinster [meaning,an old single woman].
Mum: Don't look at me,this one is his request.
Me: Then what's your request leh? *try change topic*
Dad: Oi! So scared for what? Haiyo,if got say got... If don't have then i need to start looking
already. *use threatening method?*
Me: U wait lorh.. Maybe when i come back from Aussie for holidays..
Dad: U don't try to be funny and bring ang moh guy back arh. Not that i dun approve, i prefer
chinese. Don't so skinny,look like don't eat wan. Bring him back arh! No dateline,open date.
No need scared la,i won't eat him. Maybe just feed to the dog. Aiya,i just kidding la.
Seriously,bring him back.
Me: *stares at Joshua*
Joshua: *smiles*

That boy. I am going to cut his blanket tonight.

But at least la... haha..
At least i know they're cool about it. =)

*runs off and hides shyly in a corner*

Very "Nice" topic,so on time =)

2009-08-07T22:49:00.004+08:00

~Tagged By Angel~
Once you've been tagged, you have to answer all the question HONESTLY..Lastly choose 6 people to be tagged :)

1.How old were you when you had your first relationship ?
= i shall choose to ignore this question like Angel =p

2. Are you taken/single?
= i am taken and unavailable =)

3. Do you like anyone right now?
= i like everyone! Love however,is a different thing.

4. Ever had your heartbroken?
= yup,but its past tense.

5.Miss anyone right now?
= yeah,very much..

6. Who was the last person you sent a text to?
= Hugh..didn't reply de.

7.Last person to text you?
= Davelyn.. sum fwd msg abt 123456789 thing...

8. Last person you saw?
= my brother..

9. What was the last thing you said to someone?
= Harrr? Tomorrow? Very hot lehhh...

10. Who is top in your top friends?there are top frens?
= Of cuz gt top frens ^^

11. Who do you trust the most in your life?
= honestly? My other half,haha. But recently,he is outdated cuz busy.. =D

12. Who do you love most?
= Waseh this question,so frank one.. Haha,i love u... U love me,we are happy family...
And that was my answer =) in a form of clue..

13. Ever been in love?
= Yes...

14. Who has hurt you the most?
= its not who hurts you the most,its what hurts you the most. And what hurts me the most is,past tense. Haha..

15. Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
= Yes.

16. Are you happy?
= Well,no. I'm not. I reli dislike ppl hu don't understand what other ppl are saying. Or just pretend to be stupid.

17. How many good friends do you have?
= good frens i have a lot... but quality frens,are my utmost and dearest gang =)

18. Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone?
= yesh. i'll cry. =(

19. Have you ever cheated on a partner?
= i have never cheated.

20. Ever been cheated on?
= Yes, it hurted. But i'm okay now.. Just don't happen again. Ishh.

21. Ever been told someone loved you?
= wahhh,i wanna hear that right now. =)

22. Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
= i always mean it =D

23. Not meant it?
= sweat. zzzzz. see my ans above...

24. What is your idea of true love?
= Its like....having your soul split into half. one's you,the other's yr partner. Together,its just AWESOME. There are ups and there are downs. Same and different personality at the same time. Nothing about physical attraction,its all inside. No cinderella story business,u just have to make yr own love story. Its about understanding,commitment,honestly and loyalty. Someone u can imagine yrself holding hands with when yr sitting in a wheelchair at the age of 70,if you live that long =)

25. Do you believe in love at first sight?
= No. Always always always take a second look!

26. Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
= Yes.. Frens first =)

I tag...
1. Christine Tan
2. Taufiq
3. King
4. Geraldine Chia
5. Michelle Ong [after ur back from holidays,gal ^^]
6. Anyone who's interested =)

Memories Of My Blue Pinafore...

2009-08-07T19:32:00.013+08:00

I had a last minute late supper yesterday night =)
Was supposed to be for lunch today but my mum asked me to clean my room. So.....
i went to McD's =D
You know,everytime i go McD..i'll miss someone.. =(
They dun give pepper anymore! Sad case,because i was recently taught by a bad boy to eat fries wit lotsa pepper and chilli sauce. Sighhhsss. Know who's the kind driver?

Mr. Hugh Lim. Thanks for driving me =) I'm sorry i can't drive... Was a last min decision to go..

I feel better now that we chat quite a lot of stuff that's been bothering me and him. Hopefully he feels better too!

I reli wanted to talk to somebody but i know he's busy.. =(

Its okay,i'll update him when he's free. But i'm sure he knows what's bothering me anyway,since i'm bloggin [and the fact that i am quite easy to predict once u know me well enough]..

And it isn't hard to see,considering how there's a stalker on my chatbox.

Gaahhh. Apparantly the person doesn't understand English.

Went to pump petrol after that and i spot something cute on the dashboard =D

I then felt bored waiting so.... this picture came about ^^

After that went for car ride along the JPJ's driving test route,haha!!

Even drove past a few ppl's house on the way home..And then he scared me by driving so damn slow at dark roads. I WAS FREAKING NERVOUS I WANTED TO PEE. But thanks for gettin me home in time before i peed on yr carseat.

Have i told u i envy ppl who have a P license?!

And its super amazing how guys can master machinery stuff so fast. I mean its like past few days,they dun even noe when to change gear,d car died and stuff. Den today,its like WALAAAA BAAM ABRACADABRA, drive as if been driving for a few hundred years. I saw that happen wit Delton,Hugh, and even that person.

I pray that i would be able to drive like a girl but with the skills of a guy.

Yes,i know that makes no sense laaaaa,dun need to give me that look.. =p

And i listened to my mummy and cleaned my room. Miss those school days..

Well,okay...only halfway. The weather so damned hot i was sweating buckets and finally end up in front of the fan listening to Big Bang. I shall continue with my cleaning step by step!

And these was the two shorts i meant in my previous post =)

Oni RM19.90 each! I gotta save from now so i can move out next year into an apartment! I'm determined not to stay in the college's hostel so long,its pricey. I have my own plans,you know. =)

And i hope it comes true!

U wanna noe hw i look like when i was younger? The picture i found on my table..

Haha,i miss those baby doll fringe. And here i am now,listening to Big Bang in front of the fan =)

*credits to Michelle Teo for the picture* She's only 8 and she already knows how to take pictures for ppl.

I hope i dun show her a bad example of being vain by camwhoring!

ps: I miss someone driving me =(

Kiss Goodnight...

2009-08-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

Today.... Is nothing much =)
Just a short update because i am simply bored..
And excited!
I am going out next week wit my buddies,so i will be pretty broke.
But its okay,its worth it.. ^^
Saving up for this whole month,will probably be going out all the time...

I am feeling sleepy now,so i shall kiss the world gudnite now!
Mwaaaahhhhhs!!
♥

Back To The Beginning..

2009-08-04T18:43:00.002+08:00

Last night,i messaged Apple..
I wanted to surprise her what day it is today.. MANA TAHU..
She guessed it right. Heh. Am i that predictable,girl? Hahaha...

Anyways,for those of u who are blurr...
2 years ago,on the 4th of August was the Kuching City Day Parade.. =)
U know why that day's so special for me? Haha... I was probably going through the worst experience ever. I didn't wanna go for it,but 2 of my friends asked me to go cuz dey needed help. So as broken as i was,i picked myself up and went...

I kinda regret that decision later on when i went there and had to endure things that i didn't wanna see...I tried holding back my tears,choking on my words.. But a girl,pat me on the back and told me that things would be okay.. =) She even made me took this pic to promote burgers..

Along the way to Padang Merdeka,i reli begin to regret my decision of going. We had breaks along the way and i saw and heard even more things that i didn't wanted to listen.

SUDDENLY... Wei,no larh. U guessed wrong. I didn't cry laaaaaa. I met a stranger who ran off with my bag. All the handphones,watches,wallets,bottles of water... GONE.
Well,actually i was tired already. I had help with my bag lorr...=) And then i noticed that,Apple was gone.. Sheesh,where did she went??!! OH MY GREATEST GOSH,i was alone with someone i barely knew.

Surprisingly,nothing bad happened to me. Mwahahaha...=D Started talking and talking. I actually enjoyed myself,lols. Probably because i was in the mood to talk. Maybe going that day wasn't such a bad choice after all. Anddddd,i went home in a happier mood =D

Then i realised,i didn't even asked for the stranger's name. ==" sweat. Then i recalled, "Oh man,he studies at my sch!" Worst of all,i told like my entire life to that stranger. Aaaah,u must be thinking "Oh my god Geraldine,you so stupid la!!".
Hehe.
[Do not ask me why i put this pic up. I just happen to pass by this pic.. Its like a family portrait,i was far younger with wavy hair back then. And Apple's in this pic =) And i miss Hugh,my Chemistry buddy..]

Thanks Apple,for pulling me into going =)

Well,certain things i didn't expect came true. That day happened to be one of the greatest day that ever happened to me.. =) The stranger? He became one of the most important person ever to exist. =D

See what God can do? ^^

Someone Stole My Hair!

2009-08-02T21:42:00.003+08:00

Hey hey hey =)
I lost a lot of hair. Someone stole it in my sleep.
Hahaha,just kidding...
Who would steal my hair?!! Unless the person is a STALKER.
I had a haircut and dyed it again..
I'm not going to tell u where though,u'll be wondering how much cash i have in my wallet and whether or not my hair is made of gold.... Hehe..
Nahhh, let u see la..
Don't be fooled by the colour,its not that brown actually. Its just the same as my old colour.. Only that this time around,whenever i go under the sun or bright lights,it turns this colour...
The guy said i'm like that lizard that can change colour... ==" sweat.

I didn't cut it that short as i did last year during 5s5 prom night because....someone told me not to =)

I also brought two shorts for myself... but lazy take pics wit my phone. I'm getting back my camera tomorrow anyways^^ And then it'll be camwhore time,since i owe someone lots of pictures. Sorry ya "Uncle",u waited so long...

I also attended a funeral today. My dad's fren from his gang..Uncle Denny. Spinal cancer..
Diagnosed one month before he passed away yesterday. His daughter is only Form 1.. its so sad u noe. His wife just makes me tear up. I don't wanna think anymore...sighs =(

I need a hug.

Cupcake Love...

2009-08-01T21:48:00.005+08:00

I did say i'll bake right? =)
Today,i did.. Hehe... Well,before u laugh at my work...
Let me show u my mum's =D
I love the one with the swiggly flowers thingy.. My mum's so good at it..
I think her baking genes must have skipped one generation.
Why? Look at mine...
Very kiddish okay... Haha,i was very messy at it. Among all i love my vanilla flavoured Y. Mwahahahaaaaaaa. I am so sorry about the quality of the pics,i used my 3.2mp hp. Sighhhss. I miss my cammy. [ AND I WANT IT BACK SOON!]

Hmm,updates? Haha,nothing much today.. Just that i feel so in "missing" mode.
I'm supposed to be listing what i have to buy and bring with me in September,but i don't know why everytime i wanna do it i feel like crying...
I just have to keep telling myself i am strong,and i have to be strong..
I don't wanna make people worry about me.
I don't wanna let anyone down.
And,i don't wanna let HIM down. Oh damn,i wish i'm on the phone wit him now.

Aaaah Geraldine dear,dun dream so much.

Oh yeah,since i'm this far already.. i need to thank someone. =)

Happy August =D
THANKS for being with me for so long. Its nearly 2 years now since the parade..
I wish i could say all the words to make u understand what it means to me,but i can't.
Cuz i dun have the right words to describe this..
But i know u will understand,because as i have said you're my other half..
I'm missing you..
=)
*hugs*

We're Awesome..

2009-07-31T00:32:00.002+08:00

Haha,so in case u noticed...
I'm changing my blog name...
"Its Awesome,US=)"
There's a very simple explaination for that actually...
Me and him=we're awesome..
We don't need you to butt in and mess things up.
Like the lyrics in Leona Lewis-Bleeding Love..
Let me edit it.
" I don't care what you say,i'm in love with him."

That's never going to change. No matter what.

Dreams Got The Best Of Me

2009-07-28T21:24:00.003+08:00

I had a random outing with frens yesterday =) Cass,Del,Andy,Liping and Niraaj.. Gt few ppl did nt make it..
It was last minute planning,as usual... Went to Riverside to watch the floats... Well,we reached kinda early so after waited and chattin for a while,we went to McD ^^ Perfect timing man,we went back and it started... and it even drizzled after d whole thing.. we missed out the last fireworks though... i dun have any pics tho,i didnt bring my cammy... some are in my hp.. But,Niraaj had a "fren" along... A DSLR!! Just waitin to get d pics frm Del =)

Anddddd,i overslept today,nearly noon. Eeek,yes... sweattt...=="
I'll tell u why... its bcuz i kept dreaming abt HIM. Few days already.
I was so blissfully happy i didn't want to wake up.
I was sooooooo happy =D I cannot believe he was here with me.
Then suddenly,i woke up and realised.
Ooowhh,its just a dream. Shit.
And i thought it was real. T.T
So sad weiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.
I should have pinched myself in d dream. If its not pain,then its nt real.
DAMN. Haihhhs. I feel like i just wanna sleep and not get up.
I just miss him so much.

Ps: My aunt has finally came. I think i need to get her an alarm clock. She owez gets her timing wrong. Haihs. Huggin a pillow so i dun feel the cramps. =(

Beside me,Beside u.. LOVE!

2009-07-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

I had terrible sugar cravings these few days. Soooo....
Not bad for a phone that doesn't have macro focus.. Roarrrr!! =D I wished gt more strawberries though... so damn expensive at Kuching,and very rare too.. But wad to do... Just make whatever with..
You drooling already? =) Save yr saliva dear,stil gt more...

Right now i have one thing in mind... Clue?

Yes,i wish u were beside me now..

I miss u so MUCH.

MUCH.

Do u have a boyfriend?

2009-07-24T00:36:00.002+08:00

I made CHE ku kueh =D Natural worrr,i use pandan extract instead of red colourings this time round. I do have pics bt my cammy is wit mah dad nw,he wants to take sum pics for client claims. Gonna bake next week =D
Don't be surprised,i do bake... Mwahaha...
I suddenly have this urge for sushi and iced watermelon drink. Oh man,i'm hungryyyyyyy already =(

Speaking abt LOVE, i don't know why bt most guys wil always ask the same question if they add u on facebook or smth or just make frens at sum event. Or haven't met u in a long time. An old friend recently message me...
"Do u have a boyfriend? You still single? You still with whatever that guy's name is? Cannot find someone better kah after yr ex?"
Don't jump to conclusions larh. My answer is always the same: dun reply d sms.
Simply bcz i don't know what to think. Is it because out of caring for friend's sake,or they trying to find target to hit on. I'm saying this for the sake of us girls,we're nt dartboards..throw and then score. Then start new game.

I am annoyed with people like that. Hahaha...

I injured my palm trying to pry open the durians my dad brought. Sheesh. I dun eat durians,i just love opening them. =p and nw the scratches on my palm are itchy. Better go apply Dettol after this =)

ps: Since nobody's gonna bother bringin me for sushi these few days,should i make em myself? ^^

Harry Potter and the Car Perfume =D

2009-07-23T00:34:00.006+08:00

Sooooo....where shall i start?
Thanks to DELTON for driving us with d Avanza [hey,its like luxary for adults our age man....] and buying the back seats tixs in advance.... You rock!! ^^
And yessssss,i've finally watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince! =)
We reached quite early,ard 7... it started at 8 and we already had the tix so jz chit chattin ard. I hate to say this but DELTON made me hungry for sushi. T.T
I didn't buy it though... nw i regret. haihssss.

The part at the lake where some hand suddenly grab Harry's while he was scoopin d water scared me. Haha,didn't expect that. i swore i heard someone screamed! Ron's character was super cute this time ard,he made me laugh quite a lot. And guess what..

For those of u that knew me very well,i have a weak bladder. Need to pee every nw and then. But i made it thru this 2 hr and a half witout going to pee! YAY ME!!! Went for siobee and soya bean [nope,its nt cold. I listen to u eyyy daddy] after that at open air =) Kept laughing at Del cuz he sumhw managed to bring the car perfume down with him. Went ard laughing and "lookin" at prostitutes and pondans at Kch's hotspots. LOLS.

Thanks Delton, Hugh, and Casey =) Miss u guys so much! Lets plan next trip ^^

By the way,if someone would like to know my latest korean obsession,its Kang Daesung!! He's one of the Big Bang members,and he's owh so cute! But he's a just a singer =)

Someone has a higher post ^^

Here I Am Again..

2009-07-20T22:27:00.003+08:00

Again and again,i find myself in this position.
I don't know why.
In the end,i'm sitting here again.
Just doing nothing but stare at my feet.
Thinking of everything.
Reaching for the tissues.
I'm sorry that i failed to keep my promise that i won't cry.
I'm sorry that i can't control my tears.
I'm really sorry.
I just really miss u, a whole lot.
More than words can say.

♥ u so...
Real Much.

Happy Birthday Apple Dear!! =)

2009-07-20T20:51:00.005+08:00

Today is a SPECIAL DAY.
Its Apple's birthday =)

NOOOOOOO. NOT THIS APPLE.

Its this APPLE!!

Happy 18th birthday dearrrr!

I know yr dreading the day for weeks,but its okay...

Better enjoy our teens while we still can =)

Don't worry about the rest..

Because of Kawasan A [remember? =D],you came into mah life..

Because of that same place,we got into a lot of fights.

Eventually made up and spent lotsa time together =3

Ups and downs along the way..

Because of u,i met the most amazing person ever..[u shud noe hu]

Don't worry,ur amazing yrself =D

You were my diary and still my diary today..

I think if i were to continue,i won't finish typing...
so i shall end this here and let the story continue...

Here's to u babe!! Cheers!!

♥

My Other Half..

2009-07-18T13:39:00.003+08:00

I have to admit i'm very dependant on my blog to express myself.
Everytime i'm feeling a streak of emotion,i'll be here.

Christine =) Thanks. I owe u a breakdown,seriously. If i didn't talk to u yesterday i guessed i would have already been long gone. Thanks for keeping me company and listening to every woe of mine. And don't eat him,he won't be able to fit. Hehe,i read the msgs. And thanks for bloggin on my behalf yesterday night ^^ Thanks for everythingggggg...Mwaksszz..

I can't find where to begin about the past few days. Saw a lot,experience a lot,went thru a lot and did a lot. I can't exactly go deeply into details,or u'll be sitting at yr screen in shock. Haha,seriously meant that. You will never believe me. Unless you're in my shoes. If u only knew,i'd LOVE to see the look on yr faces.. hehe..

As usual before auntie visits this month,i am havin super large dosages of emotions. Arrggghh i hate it. No matter what,hormones always win. That is a fact,i suppose. It cannot be helped.

There's one last thing i wanna mention for someone.
Sorry and thank you. It was an awesome yet horrible day all in one.
So many things, memories, words, deeds,happenings. Somehow,a day i'd never forget. Its rather complicated.
I have no idea how to explain but i know u'll understand.
Because you're my other half. The other part of me.

I am gonna catch a nap now although its rather late in the afternoon. I deserve it after all that thinking of how to post this without deep details. =)

ps: Super Junior's song "Its You" is great,has been on my playlist on repeat the whole afternoon..Loving it!

Explanations Later..

2009-07-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

I feel sad.
Anxious.
Afraid.
Angry.
Guilty.

But I also feel happy.
Awesome.
Safe.
All smiles.
Fine.

Is it possible to feel so many emotions at the same time? I'm beginning to question my sanity. I dun know whether this is another 'aunt' thing but I'm sure of 1 thing. I think TOO MUCH.

Ps: miss u too. Hearts.. =]

Mirror mirror...

2009-07-13T20:23:00.009+08:00

Haha,by the looks of my mirror...its time to clean my room again. U get those kind of smudges when u have to lean in and apply mascara or eyeliner..=)

I am so gonna make sure my future closet (why closet? Bcz OUR clothes can fit a whole room,already had that discussion with him) as well as one side of d the bathroom wall shall be mirrored. Nyahahaha. As the saying goes, toilets are girls favourite studios. *winks*.. Hey,can't blame us. We're just attracted to anything reflective.
AAAh the vainness. OOhh,when i put on this dress for dinner that day,i realised this was my graduation dress. YES. The 5s5 prom nite dress!! So much memories~

One of my aunts had to surprise me with a secondary hp. I was just joking about having a spare phone to bring with me... And she actually gt me one!

Even if its nt the latest,i LOVE it. Bcz its screen acts like a mirror. SERIOUSLY. i can see my face with COLOURS.. Has all the basic functions like bluetooth,camera.. Its a spare hp,dun need so advanced.. After all i already have my baby =)

Did i mentioned its so small? Would be good for spotchecks... Why larh i didnt get this hp in the first place when stil at sch?!

Spend this few nights being a zombie watching love movies,both on DVD and online.. Already got "tegur" the other night so i guess i'll relax down a bit..hehe.. a gud girl always listens to her "daddy" =p and i do not mean my real dad.

I guess nabila's right...

A Walk To Remember and tissues always come together...

Thank God i had Moooo to hug. My pillow was a bit too big to hug while sitting down. I wonder where the other love movies went. Shall go and dig around~

And i saw another beautiful sunset. Sighsss. So beautiful. I am obsessed with the sky. Haha. I'm sure Michelle would love this too =)

I'm just trying not to think so MUCH.

Just don't think soooooo much.

Sighs. I hope that i would be okay larh...=)

Hey you,i'm blue!!! [???]

2009-07-07T23:59:00.007+08:00

I've been learning to do photo manipulation and advanced photoshop these few days from Clement =) Thanks for giving me online lessons! This ain't my work yet though,took it from his example notes. Colour splash!! Still need to perfect it up before i actually premiere my work..

This is also a tricky one.. Also not my work,from the notes. Have soooo much to learn before i can do your camwhore album okayyyyy...=D

Sherry went to KL these two days to bring her grandma who's staying in Petaling Jaya with her uncle back to Kuching for the holidays.. She's practically forgotten how to use an aeroplane after all these years. That's why Sherry had to go over to aid her. Mwahahaha. Then she came over and gave me my prezzies!

A pair of shorts frm Roxy =) Aaahhh lovess! I still wonder why they had to give such a big paperbag. Unless Sherry also brought something frm Roxy..

A pair of black pants frm MNG.. She told me they had salessssss T.T No wonder she got all the singlets... But its okay since i've gotten my singlets frm Forever 21 when i was at KL. Teehee..

She also got me a shirt from Players,a white blouse from some shop at Mid Valley,and a really flowery tube dress from Debenhams. Comes with detachable straps too!! And removable bra paddings!! hahaha,i'm just being frank okie?

i don't know hw she managed to squeeze everything into her luggage bag seeing the amount of food she carried home. She cud have just thrown the paperbags and jz gave me and Mel our stuff ^^ Thanks so much Sherry =D I love it all! *hugs*

She got him Quiksilver pants and a Fila shirt if i'm nt mistaken.

Wonder what she gt for her hubby..

My mum's blouse...=)

For some weird,horrible and funny reason,i now feel like crying. Gosh. I don't know what's gotten into me. T.T I guess its just da blues~

ps:Am watching Michael Jackson's funeral on 512. T.T Rest In Peace.

Kiss me thru d phone =P

2009-07-06T19:59:00.006+08:00

I think i promised pictures from the BLUE dinner ryte?
Err,i have no idea why but the rest won't upload so i've only got two. =(
Anyway...

YES. That's me. In a blue cheongsam with blue makeup and blue pumps.
Mwahahaaa! I seriously felt so tall!! I was actually in a rush,so i didn't get to paint my nails in the blue shade that i love. And tie my hair in a proper bun or curl it. Gosh. I decided to leave it straight,den realised my fringe was too long. So i pinned it back with da butterfly clip i "borrowed" from my mum. ~~ps: She doesn't know actually.~~
nahhh,closer look so u can start laughing =) Don't ask y i'm nt smiling.. Its tough to smile nicely when yr fat and the cheongsam is so tight =DDDD

But i have to say i look curvy in pictures =) So unexpected,bcuz its all fat. My mum keeps telling me otherwise,saying its curvy and not fat. Just like a debate. Curvy. Fat. Curvy. Fat. You get the story...

Just went for my medical checkup for visa application today. Apparantly blood taking isn't compulsary after all. BUT,students that are from the health science stream (doctors,nurses,dentists,ect ect) is required to undergo blood taking. T.T

Dr: So girl,it says here u are going for Diploma of Nursing for 2 years and 4 months?

Me: Yup.

Dr: College is it? Then u'll be continuing for Bachelors at Australia?

Me: Actually I don't know yet,it all depends on the future. Maybe i'll consider some other places besides Aus. Got a lot to consider;family,love,surroundings ect ect ect.

Dr: I see. *smiles* I will need to take your blood as its compulsary for health science students. Its to screen for HIV,Hep B and C.

Me: *gulps and gets all panic,already starts imagining all the terrible scenarios*

Dr: owhh don't worry. *takes my blood* The taking doesn't hurt,its the after that will slightly be uncomfortable.

And he did not lie. mwahaha,i've got a painful swollen bruise around that area now. He was really gentle so it didn't pinch much =) And i had to get a chest xray done too. Now that was rather funny,wearing nothing but d hospital gown.
Also got some stuff for myself.. a pair of skinny jeans,an army printed skirt,a blouse and a dress =) Am happy *winks*

I just need a kiss on my arm =D

I think i've fallen in LOVE.

2009-07-04T20:41:00.004+08:00

It’s like you’ve taken half my self away with you.

- Edward Cullen,Twilight series-

Someone should seriously write me away into Twilight Saga =)

Nothing better to do at the moment,so am drowning myself in books.

Sighhhs. I wish i was at KL this moment. [was asked to attend smth]

Am a bit lonely here.

So i'll have Edward Cullen as my temporary imaginary boyfriend for now..

Am halfway thru Eclipse.. [ i will soooooooo read the whole series again.]

Owhhh,i was thinking of catching Harry Potter wit Cass cuz d prefect board's doing the premiere.. Wonder any tix left.. Wanna ask Del along too if can.. mwahaha.. I'm not going to risk my life yet again bcz no guys around. And maybe Hugh too.. hehe.. its been long since i last met them.. T.T

I'm currently addicted to this song,its been on repeat since afternoon..

Yeah,korean guys =3 so makes me wanna dance... Daesung!!! [HOTTTTT]

Rawwwwwrrrrrrrr!!!!! Have a listen at my music corner ^^ "motto movin...groovin...."...*hums away*

And oh yeah,blue themed dinner ytdy =D pics soon! For the photoshoot sucess,lols.. My fav colour~

I've got to say,yesterday was the most emotionally weird day.

ANGER.. FEELING GLAD I GT NICE FRENS TO LISTEN TO ME.. SAD..

HAPPY.. AND THAT FEELING OF FEAR. Gosh. My heart must be pretty confused. Haihhhs. Am gonna continue my reading nw,my temporary bf's calling me.

ps: Thanks Delton and Hugh... Tell u larh,yr gfs in da future wil be very happy to hv u as bfs =) That's a compliment okayyyy..

Where are guys when we need them???

2009-07-03T12:09:00.003+08:00

I have a few things to say bcuz the person sitting beside me made me do this.
[Guess who? Its nt hard to guess.. its Miss Sherry..]
Manners people,manners!!
You do not go and stare at people when they are eating okay.
You do not have to flirt with random girls at shopping malls.
You do not have to wait outside the girls's washrooms just to get their numbers.
You do not have to grab attention by announcing to yr mates that u are still single.
You do not just assume the two girls are single if they are walking alone without guys next to them,for all u know they might be in a long distance relationship or their bfs are still in class somewhere..
Lastly, YOU DO NOT TELL THEM THAT U THINK THEY TASTE GREAT.
Like wtf.

Its super annoying to eat when u are observed man.
Just because we're at the mall doesn't mean we're there to flirt bcuz we gt nothing better to do.
The reason why there's the guys and ladies washrooms is for them to do their business in peace,not a place promoting and exchanging our numbers.
We do not care if you're single.
And we are not single,don't cha see we're nt interested?
Andddd, do not ever ever say we taste great. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW US.

Urggghhh,creeps. We're like super afraid/mad now.
Desperate for nothing men.

I just hate rushing back to the car basement and keep checking if they're following. T.T
Where are the guys when u need them????

My Love Story...

2009-06-30T23:10:00.005+08:00

You don't recognize the biggest day of your life...

not until you're right in the middle of it.

The day you commit to something or...someone...

The day you get your heart broken...

The day you meet your soul mate...

The day you realize...

there's not enough time...

because you wanna live forever...

Those are the biggest days...

The perfect days...

-Izzie Stevens,Grey's Anatomy-

How many times would u find a man who will tell u that u look hot bald in your deathbed having cancer? I tell you arr,if u do find that man,KEEP HIM. There's no one who can say that and mean it unless he loves you. Know the reason why i love Grey's Anatomy? =)

It sum sorts reveals u a lot of stuff abt life and love. Deep deep words. Plus the extra drama ^^

Makes u think of yr own love story ya know!! =D

I love my love story =)

as well as the 'main actor'. [hahaha,u understand wat i'm talking abt kah,Mr Blurr?]

Somebody Save Me...

2009-06-28T22:20:00.002+08:00

I just cannot figure out why.
Why i think so much? TOO much..?
I really really miss it.
Miss you.
Gaaahhh,badly in need of a hug.
I simply need a hug.
That hug.

AAAAhh. *sobs*

My Escape 2,Back To Kuching..

2009-06-27T18:39:00.005+08:00

After bye Penang,hello Kuala Lumpur!!
And what else to do except shopping!!?!
And of course,eat again. Rawrrrr,i'm fat. Time to lose some weight.
Erm,sorry bcuz i'm lacking pictures...
This is simply a short version of my escape =p
I admit that i am not in the proper mood to update actually..
It kinda hurts to say goodbye.
Bye Angelna =( second person this week i said goodbye to.
She's going back to KL today to start her nursing studies in June.
My friend for 11 years and still going strong.
U don't know how many laughters i shared with her,how many tears i shed with her,how many quarrels we had with each other.
And yet,it all comes back to the same thing; friends forever =)
Went for karaoke together today before she went. The songs we sang!
She was happy because first time she heard me sang,hehe...
I don't normally reveal my singing to people... =p
Anyway to dear Angelna,we're always here for each other no matter rain or shine..I'll miss you. Lotsa love gal! Take care =D
Owwhh. Know who's the first person i said bye to this week?
Aaah. Just mentioning it makes my legs feel all jelly like.
This person had the nerves to come all the way to meet me at KLIA.
Harharhar.. =D
Still dare to hug ppl frm the back gok?!? Ur lucky u didn't hug the wrong person okayyyyy. I'll KILL you if u did. *smiles*

Even if its just like 4-5 hours,it means so so so much. And the sad case is,i cannot believe that i have no secrets left. =(

Someone read my organiser and well,everything's out. EVERYTHING. Including a few poems and lines that i scribble on papers earlier this year. I feel very vulnerable now,like i can easily break into pieces now if that's what somebody wanted. T.T its like,there are no boundaries. Actually i felt happy,because i didn't have to tell somebody anymore =D
I actually felt shy okayyyyyy. I mean like,seriously deep deep stuff someone was reading and i was sitting there while someone was reading and..... . . . .
Brrr,it feels so cold and my cheeks felt so hot. I bet Mr.Blurr is happy now =)
Nice eyelashes by the way! [DON'T KILL ME I BEG YOU,Next time,let me put mascara okay? Interested to see how it turns out,hehehe]

Honestly,it hurts this time.. so so much because..
I am the one walking away.
I am the one who's boarding the plane.
And i am the emotional one.

It hurts to smile when u want to cry.
It hurts even more when yr waving and yet all u really want to do is wrap yr arms around someone.
It hurts when you still feel that hug.
It hurts to stare at yr uneaten burger.
It hurts to....

Okayyy,i shall stop now. I promised i won't cry..

Well,that's basically all for now. =)
My heart on my laptop =)

My Escape Part 1...

2009-06-27T17:22:00.012+08:00

So... My one week escape?
Hehe.. i went to Penang [Georgetown to be specific,the island] for 2 days.. 20th till 22th.. which was Saturday till Monday.. It wasn't fully a holiday okay,hehe... still need to 'work'. But among the places i went there,was....
The beach =DDDDDDD
Not just any beach... Batu Ferenggi... The other end of d island.. I simply love the beach..

But this particular beach made me feel a bit sad inside. This whole stretch of beach,was hit by the tsunami in 2004. YES,that one..

Which makes me think. What if i'm standing there and something like that would happen? Ahaha,think too much again.

Besides that,i also went to the Butterfly Farm..

And look who came along with me to Penang!

Owwwhhh teddy =)

This lil bear of mine has been living the luxary life mannnn. Followed me everywhere this 2 years plus. Got to mingle with the butterflies too.. hehe..

One of the pretty things that were flying around me and landing on my head..

We took lots of pictures,but so many camera=so many pictures=more time to sort out..

I even saw this:

Wow,deep slumber there buddy!

And to those of you who actually knows i am DAMNED afraid of spiders [arachnophobia],its not easy to take this picture. Unless u got a dare to perform.

STUPID. I hate it that i have to walk so near when my camera got zoom okay. Its just so frustrating. Like,what's the use of zoom then? Truth or Dare,thanks to u.

I also got the chance to visit the mainland's roman catholic church.. St Anne's Cathedral.. so beautiful,like Roman castle or something.. too many pictures,check out my facebook after i've upload it..[got tons of other pictures to upload too,HELP T.T]

22nd June 2009

Bye Penang,nice food,shopping,sight-seeing.

Where next? =)

Nothing but sober.

2009-06-24T10:23:00.003+08:00

Oh goodness,i tell u.
I am such in a bitter mood.
So reli wanna meet up,but so limited time.
[So hard to explain. Am typing on my phone while in the car.]
And the journey here isn't exactly easy for the person as well.
I wish i could be where u are,babe.
I miss you too. Really do.
Really really do.
Certainly hope you're reading this somewhere,somehow.
Miss you. Miss everything.
Badly in need of a hug.
Am feeling really crap here.
Now i guess Vanessa Carlton's right.
You know i'd walk a thousand miles if i could just see you,tonight.
Miss you.

Escaping Tomorrow..?

2009-06-18T21:21:00.014+08:00

=) I met up with Angelna on Tuesday and we went back to school!! Woots!! Saw Mr.Ang.. His cane still never fails to scare me... LOLS. Anyway,we went to dt pondok outside d library and waited for our frens since recess was just a few mins away..

After recess then Angel,Danz,Jess and i sat at da canteen and chit chat =D miss those old school times!! i miss Jess and her novels ^^ we talked abt so much stuff,den she had to go back to class cuz f6 is reli hard to skip.. Hope can meet up wit frens again soon! I need a driver to drive me bck to sch.. waitin for Del and his holidays =))))

Then went for lunch,kolomee!! Really miss it too.. i think da last time i was der was like... when horr? Forgotten...>.< KING!! Lols,it was fun teasing him around calling very manja-ly.. "Kingggggg... King-Kinggggg..." Andddd,i met a really familar girl too^^ Saw her at school already,then saw her at Spring again.. hehe... dts wad u call gt jodoh!

Angelna was da driver,hehe.. but i had to instruct her where to go... Since she's been at KL so damned longgg..

See how happy she was to drive me? =D

And then halfway i went gila and grab the wheel...

=D Nolah... We were at Trinity Methodist Church cuz sending King home.. Then suddenly the car stalled and cudn't start... Something was wrong with the starter o smth.. So while waiting for Angelna's dad to rch,we camwhore! Really God's blessing we broke down at the church compound you know... Anyway,her dad was really gud! Was just few mins after that we're already on the road..

Went back to her place and did manicure,teeheee...

Couple phones yoooo!! Can u tell which is mine?

i bet you can now =) its da one wit da tattoo..

My gift frm Angelna... actually she just came back frm Sing for hols,so i took this.. haha..

We have the same earrings too!

i had a great and fun day... Gonna go out for breakfast after i come bac..

Owwhhh,i did mention about escaping didn't i?

Yup,i'm gonna escape. Haha.. For a whole week..

And to dear Michelle,

We have to be strong,we will be strong =) *hugs*

I'm glad i meet you and we also understand each other's feelings..Things are gonna be tough,but i feel better having you around =) Someone hu is going thru the same thing..I think we're kinda fated to meet... help each other along the way.. Take care too gal =) We must hang on tightly..

ps: just got really great news =) hopefully its not a late April fools joke or something... An so happy i'll jump thru the roof!

And to those hu are currently having exams,all the best!!

A Thousand Words...

2009-06-14T22:15:00.003+08:00

Owwhh,i nearly forget.
This is for YOU =)
The one in the green n red heart is what matters most..
Pictures do speak a thousand words,hahaha..
Miss ya lots~

Already Knew Why..

2009-06-14T21:45:00.003+08:00

-i just wanna hold your hand cuz it makes my everything okay-

Dad's booked the tix to KL. Its on the same day as my Adelaide flight. Kuching-KL,2pm in the afternoon,7 September. Means,i cannot meet Michelle earlier. It also means,i cannot meet someone. T.T

Cried like hell. The worst since ever. Plus the fact that i just realised i'm leaving so soon. Add in the fact that my dad's going to be sending me over to Adelaide. Imagine me saying goodbye to my dad when he's leaving for the airport all the way back to Kuching,home sweet home,WITHOUT ME. Back to all the food,frens,home. TWO days i cried.

Then yesterday,which was Saturday.. i finally had the mood to rch for my hp and let somebody noe d news. And that someone said,will look for me at the airport.. And then,i dunno whether to cry or smile. And Delton did a pretty gud job at cheering me up. Gosh. Am i thankful for my frens!! Thank you someone [muahhss!],and Delton. =)

I felt better after that,managed to eat smth and then get proper sleep since i didn't sleep the night before. [yeah,nap.. at 3.30pm until nearly 5 smth] Went out for dinner,since my parents noticed smths wrong with me cuz i refused to eat. When i got home,was reli moody again,so watched 27 dresses then went straight to sleep.

Woke up to meet my bloody auntie on her monthly visit.

Now i know why all those tears,moody-me,and lack of appetite. Tough being a girl. Hello cramps~

Why Do I Feel This Way?

2009-06-11T23:04:00.003+08:00

Today my dad gt the tickets for KL-Adelaide since there's an ongoing offer..

[am not sure when i'm leaving Kuching yet.. was planning to go KL for a few days to.... . . . . . . . . ]

Scheduled to depart from KLIA on 7th September at 21.50pm and reaching there the next day on the 8th September.. which is just right as my orientation starts on the 9th September.

It also happens to be a very SPECIAL day. [i wonder whether this person actually remembers or not..sobs sobs..]

Oh gosh. Is this the reason why i'm so emotional?

As my dad was booking the tickets,i suddenly felt this whiff of emotions.

I'm happy.

I'm sad.

I'm excited.

I'm nervous.

I just wanna jump around and scream.

I just wanna sit down and cry.

Is this normal? I can't believe that i'm here,at this position,at this moment.

I've been waiting a long time for this,but once the time is here,i don't wanna leave. Gosh. I am so the very very emotional right now. And probably a bit crazy. Crying and smiling at the same time. It feels so happy,but it hurts real bad at the same time. Heavy hearted to leave so many things behind. I'm going to suffer real bad for the first few days.

See. I am insane. I think of the most unimaginable unreasonable unforgivable senarios ever.

In simple english,I THINK TOO MUCH.

I think my post will either make

1. someone remembering back their moments and cry along with me.

2. someone laugh till they roll on the floor cuz they think its rediculous.

3. someone cry out of sympathy.

4. someone smile and thinks i'm funny.

5. someone sad that i'm leaving

6. all of the above

7. neither one of the above [means u have your own reactions]

8. none at all [YOU HEARTLESS. GAAAHH.]

So which number are you?

ps: If someone tells u meeting people online,online buddies or simply frens u make on the internet are bad or wad wad yadda yadda yadda,do yank their hair out their heads and slam their banana heads on lamp posts til their skulls crack and bleed to death. Its not true.. Not everyone is bad. Yes,there are.. but not all...

i met Mr Alan Tan online. He was studying at my sch,knew him thru fster. and now he's my big bro!!

And i also met Miss Michelle Ong online =) thru fster also.. And now she's gonna be my roommate!! Can't wait to meet up with you =D

See,there are good people in the world too..
Like me ^^
Okay okay,dun vomit... haha..

Owhh my green sunsilk..

2009-06-09T01:05:00.004+08:00

Suddenly i'm thinking of watermelon juice.
Of movies. Of dinners. Walks by the riverside.
Kuching festival where it all began.
That smile.
That face.
Those eyes.
That hair that smells like mine.
Those shoulders which carried my heavy bag wit lots of bottles 2 years ago.
That pair of gigantic hands who help me cross the road. [actually its cuz mine are petite =p and i am so bad at crossing roads..]
That lollipop song.
Handphones.
Those mad jokes.
Those sweet words.
McD french fries and coke. [with a lot of pepper,salt and chilli sauce]
My life.
My love.
My everything.

This green sunsilk is so damned powerful.
so the saying's true? Smell is more powerful than sight.
Now i keep smelling my hair.
gaaaah. Its addictive.
Owwwhh my dear green sunsilk.
You work wonders =)

2009-06-07T21:43:00.005+08:00

Out And About...

Hahaha!! Yesss,as d title suggests,i've been out and about.. =)
Went out wit Kav,Cass,Del and Kav's fren to go shopping for her belated bday..
She couldn't make it for the movies cuz it was a last minute thing..
So after shopping and late dinner... Cass,Del,Liping,Hugh and me met up to watch Night at The Museum 2.. Liping and Hugh joined us for dinner,but they reached da cineplex early.. =.=" cuz Hugh parked his car opposite Spring,while Del parked in the basement..

When Liping called to ask whether we rched,i told her we were still like at spring's carpark in line to go out.. Haha..
I enjoyed myself!! We brought the 10.50 slot.. D movie was extremely funny.. and i love those cupids ^^
Reached home ard 1.. hahaha.. =D

Owwh,and my bro hv a new hp.. his went hairwire.. i wondered why he didn't get the silver titanium one instead. I wasn't there when he got it cuz i was happily out wit frens.. lalala~

Cass and me got a hat each!! Different pattern of cuz,but same place..^^ We were already trying it on and putting it back cuz it was rather pricey.. Then came Kavinna with her redemption coupons cuz she brought lotsa stuff.. She had us split it into half.. so we figured out,we each gt the hat and pay the extra.. =p what a superb bargain!! heheheeee..

I'm lovinggggg it =D

2009-06-07T21:04:00.002+08:00

For A Friend Of Mine...

I hope you're gonna be okay =)

Its tough,but its okay to cry.

Its not your fault,but hers for being blind and cast u aside.

She didn't realise that she already had a great guy beside her.

Still went and play behind your back like hell.

Its her loss,not yours.

But however tough it gets,remember i'm always here.

A friend who's willing to listen,and swim around with you to vent your anger.

You're gonna be okay,boy,you're GONNA be okay.

And Mel,we know u need time.. [meaning Clement and i] so cry all u want.. swim all you want.. eat all you want.. *hugs*. YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY.

2009-06-05T21:14:00.015+08:00

Mah Lips Like Sugar..

I shall start off with a very biiggg thank you to this girl =D
No,not me. The one with the bigger smile! YES,Angelna! She just came back from KL few days ago and she got me a very special gift =) A nurse's watch. its the one u pin on yr uniform for d time,since u cannot [depends] wear a normal watch during work. Thanks gal,i love it!! Will cherish it very much =D mwaaahhhss love you!

So yesterday was our class reunion cum bday party =)

GOSH i miss my ex-classmates! As usual,Delton was the appointed driver,hehehe. So Liping came to my hauz to wait for him to pick us up. Den we went to pick Casey,Christine and Cisca. Amazing eyy,we all fit into a kancil. He was gonna drive the avanza but ended up wit kancil cuz.... i'll tell u later ^^

As i DO NOT own a Malaysian driving licence *sobs* i was camwhoring away while other ppl took the wheel.. My dad doesn't want me to learn driving here. Thus,the camwhoring while other ppl took the wheel. For example:

Mr.Delton Sako. He drives awesomely now man. I recalled last year during the prefect movie,he was driving the avanza and always died halfway at junctions. Me and the girls in the car that time kept laughing and screaming like hell. Sorry Del,we know its distracting. Now,he drives so smooth. Can even rempit already. Heck,male drivers tend to learn machinery stuff fast than us. Including somebody. =D

Meet Miss Christine Tan. This dearie of mine recently got her P licence so she hijacked Del's car. Drove all the way to pick Cisca and then to Westwood. I have faith in you girl!! Jia you!! Keep practicing!! *hugs* And don't forget to drive me when u get yr first car!! MUSTTTTT.

ps: Kancil was MEANT for her to hijack =p

Rich kids who use Sony Ericsson. Hehehe,guess which's mine? [no butterfly tattoo to help u this time =D]

Gang reunited!! Just missing two person.. Kavinna and Molaris..

THE BEFORE: Lamb chop. Mine ^^ quite okay larh,just that i dun really taste the lamb flavour. T.T The knife they gave was so damned blunt. I was handling the knife like some retard trying to kill someone. Luckily nobody caught me in action since there's no sight of pics. Teeheee..

THE AFTER: I managed to finish it without that bloody knife. With my hands of course. I gave up on that knife. Haha,Chris said i looked like a barbarian. =D

In case you already forget how she looks like,here she is =p i swear i'm getting chubbier.

Group pic. Err, Gab and Ing Lee missing.. They went to gt Ing Lee's car.. Oh yeah,we were so noisy,that's why they transferred us to the closed section =p

i guess larh..

After the meal,phototaking and gossiping sesion over,we decided our next stop. Some had to go home early,so they carpool. The rest of us however,decided to stop by at the airport. I don't know whether its for the aircon or the fact that the roads are so straight so can rempit. LOLS. Anyway,when we reached,me,cass and del decided to grab ice cream frm McDonalds. xp..

Lepak ard,then discussed whether should go for movie or nt since so late. Some have curfew and class the next day. So our final stop was the Friendship Park. Went there for camwhore and just walking about. Then,home. Haha,it was fun. A couple of us decided to rempit.

Then Mr Delton Sako remembered that Miss Liping's camera batteries are still with him. So,we drove the extra mile to her house just to send her batts to her. Thing was,she was in Hugh's car and he was sending her back. So,another rempit session and camwhore on the road. LOL.

The END. Ehhh,credit to Liping for taking this picture. Eeheheeee.

All in all,it was a great day. =)

I had fun laughing and screaming and camwhoring and eating.

Nt to mention the rempit session.

Haha,actually the rempit session wasn't that extreme larh.

I remembered somebody drove faster. Horrr?

2009-06-04T01:45:00.002+08:00

OOps. I'm caught by someone.

Guess what i just found out?

Someone's reading my blog.

Ahhhh,i kinda shyy lerr.. So unexpected.

But nevermind,read all u want.. =D

So u will know...

THAT doesn't mean i cannot be shy baahhh,very wuliao,okay..

Dun say i didn't let u know..

Bluekss!!

Anyway,am going to Westwood with my classmates and gang tomorrow to celebrate Eng Tong's bday! So duunnnn worry,there'll be pictures and not so much on my beautiful typing... Eheeeee.. So to that somebody,enjoy wat yr reading and dun laugh so loud till u make everyone wake up or something... ^^

I'M INNOCENT. *shows tongue*

2009-05-31T22:51:00.002+08:00

A Whacked Out Me..

I am very very THE SUPER ANNOYED [when my english is that broken,you know i mean it.] with the damned Streamyx line. So lousy!!! Its like after a few mins,dc.. connect,then dc again. GGGGAAAHHH. I'll yank the hairs out of their heads. Dare to tell me that still doing upgrading? Don't mess with a girl and her hormones.. Just digging your own grave deeper and deeper. *sulks*

Anywaysssss... I'm free!! And broke. Haha... Am going out on Thursday and probably Wednesday as well,both for frens bday =D

I really hope money will drop from the sky above.

I know,i know. It won't. Heeeeeehee..

And i would so like to mention one thing. Public toilets should be maintained in such a way that paying 20 cents per entry should be worth it. I dun wanna pay 20 cents for doorless cubicles,sinks that has no tap/mirrors and do i have to mention,THAT AWFUL STENCH?!? I mean come on larh! I would so rather pee at the drain [if i could] rather than going into that toilet and paying 20 cents somemore worrr! Luckily this smart girl went to the nearby hotel,free and easy,with music and air-con,toilet papers provided and nice mirrors for camwhore!

I'm smart eyyy *smiles* =D

2009-05-28T21:49:00.002+08:00

Free At Last!

I am so happy cuz i'm gonna resign tomorrow!

Great timing too,as its paycheck day =)

I'm gonna miss the peeps there though,have taught me a lot about working life and all that stuff.

Finally some time for myself and homey moments with mummy!!

Does it mean i'll be going broke? YES,sadly.

But on the bright side,when people are all busy studying/working,i'm slacking.

Har har har. Lame man.

ps: And yes Mel,i'm up for that shopping =D just as long as i bring my bro cuz i owe him a shopping spree as well.. hehe.. Bring Ashley! i miss that front-toothless 8 year old brat! ^^

2009-05-23T15:33:00.002+08:00

My Secret Deadly Wish...

ER [Easter Rally] concert tonight!! =)

The sad thing is,Chris isn't gonna be there with us.

Her dad dun allow her to go out.. T.T

WHYYYYYY????

I hope sumhow it'll still be a happy night,am feeling quite down these days.

I have a very weird wish and i'm gonna admit it today.

Suprised much?

Sometimes i wished i was dead to see hu's missing me.

I'm not suicidal larhhh.

Am just wondering who would bother to miss me,or even remember me.

Cuz sometimes,

you just feel you HAVE to know.

Have you made an impact on someone's life,enough so that they would keep u in their hearts?

Have you made someone love you so much,enough so that the person would cry for you?

Have you made a difference in someone's life,enough so that they would trade the world for you?

That's what i wonder.

I really wish i knew.

How much i mean.

Just my thoughts,no worries.. =)

2009-05-21T22:40:00.002+08:00

What's Up These Days..

Heeeeyyyy =) I'm sooo happy i finally got to meet Chris after months!!!! We took a few pics,but i'm rushing against time to get my LAST [read ppl: LASTTTT] accounts paperwork done cuz after this i'm resigning! Sounds so cool eyyy.. "I'm resigning. Hmmmphh *storms off*"

I'm like so over reacting.

Anyways,i'm gonna get my two Nikes shoes pick out by next week! Yayness!! One for myself and one forrr?? Anybody wants? =D haha,both for me.. I'm still thinking which ones me wanna pickyyyy..

Near my workplace,there's this DiGi shop.

There's this guy,keeps asking for my number.

He's okay laa,but sooo annoying.

I'm soooo not gonna give him my number,lol.

ANNOYING.

Keeps asking if i'm using DiGi or not..if i'm not then can keep my current no but change to DiGi,can also pick if wanna prepaid or postpaid.

Walks past the place where i eat with my colleagues and smile smile.

Then they'll ask me all sorts of questions, "ehhh,itu boyfriend kamu kaa? Apasal dia selalu jalan sini? Lihat kamu ehhh! Hari itu dia tanya kamu punya nombor owhh,saya tak bagi. AAAh,u tengok,dia lalu lagi owwwhh."

He keeps telling me my hp nice and wanna check it out..

I'm not giving it,heh.. I'm not dumb..

But i don't know how he finally got my number.

Must be either one of my colleagues like Miss COW.

Pity him cuz i got Melvin to answer the call and told him wrong number.

Keeps promoting me the DiGi stuff everydayyyyyy..

He's a good promoter,but little does he know how much i already know.

After allllll.... . . . .

Shutup,Christine. i know yr smiling away =p

2009-05-18T21:14:00.003+08:00

Am Missing You..

I know for sure u're gonna murder me again,if i say i'm sick.

Sorry,i am again.. Like serious diarhorrea. Been to the toilet dunno hw many times today,and my arse hurts badly i so have to sit on a pillow,now that i'm finally at home. Andd,i lost my voice. =.="

i sound like a frog. I know,i know... how to go overseas right? Bring u in my luggage,told u already.. =]

I so badly miss you... Its like making my already aching chest even more aching.

yeppp,that's so how i feel. It isn't abt how long since i last saw you or the amount of time since we last talked face to face,its just how i wish you were here.
Just wanted you to know i miss ya lots!

i wonder if the KL-Penang trip wil be alrite,i overheard the crew members talking abt rescheduling the trip due to the swine flu thingy at Penang. =( i badly wanna go shoppinggggg and... . . .

Sighs.

I pray that all will be alright..

i just noticed that well,blogging's the only thing that keeps my frens and somebody updated on my life since most are busy wit sch/uni/working life.. and i'm gonna be slacking away like anything in two weeks time!

Nevermind larh,at least u aren't gonna be reading bio like me after i resign=D
And i remembered somebody hates bio,*sticks tongue out,super bluekss*

Bio's good hun,just that the exams sucks!

ps: YOU forgotten to let me know.. =p

2009-05-16T21:01:00.004+08:00

My day??

I have no idea why some clients tend to be bitchy for goodness sake.

I'm just the person who hands the packaged original documents,receipt and copy of bank stuff after the case settled.

She comes back the day after and starts yelling that one of her certs is gone.

Hey mam,u signed the released form.

Read the terms and conditions at the back of your release form.

"3. This release form is to declare that all items such as certificates,bank drafts copies and ect have been returned to you in the condition whereby it was first handed to the management for declaration. "

You effing signed it. SIGNED IT.

Means u already CHECKED IT.

Stupid.

Anyway,here's my outfit =D

Haha,i got to wear it without looking out of place!! Btw,i'm bringin d top with me to aussie,Chris.. you'll never see it again!! Just joking *bluekss*

Oh dear,i gotta lose that flabby arms. Darn the weight that seems to go to the wrong places. I know Michelle will get this =D

Anddddddd,i got to take picture of a rainbow today!! Somehow it ends my day just right.. I'm much happier already.. =]

Thanks Angelna for that beautiful posts ^^

Its true you know.

We quarrel a lot last time,friend here dun friend there..

But at the end of the day,you're always there for me =)

Lets have a sleepover when your back dear!!

2009-05-15T21:27:00.002+08:00

Rock and Roll Day...

We had rock and roll day today,where everyone had to dress up according to a theme set.. Haha,funny thing?

I'll post up my outfit next post,since my cammy batt ran low after whole day of cammmywhorring.. =) At first,i thought of just wearing all black plus eyeliner.. But,i remembered that i have a great gangster looking top in my closet,given by who else but Christine!!

Add it wit eyeliner and mascara and u get a cool combi!!

Even that COW's eyes popped out. Yaya,sakainess on her part. Well,cannot blame her,i was taller than her for like... everyday?? *sticks tongue out* even taller today wit boots!

I bet she thought i have no such outfit.

Anyways,i'm going to KL and Penang next month! Am going up to Penang first,then down to KL. Whatever for? *giggles* I can't tell since i'm under written contract to keep it low.. But,only one person knows why though... . .

And that's because i told him under the influence of Loveygytis.

naw,just kidding!

Love is the reason why larh! *grins*

Much Loves!!

2009-05-13T22:39:00.002+08:00

If You Were A Boy..

You all surely know that song, If I Were A Boy by Beyonce,right?

I love it too =)

Here's the point of view from a guy [R.Kelly], and i must say HELL yeah every guy should think like this! [and tell his girl so!]

Just admit it larh i'm so right =) Don't laugh!

~If u were a boy, then girl you'd understand..
you need to stop listening to your friends..
love, respect and trust your man.

So i go to clubs with the guys and sometimes flirt with the
girls, i should be able to roll out as long as i'm coming home
to you, and give you the world.

But you're not a boy, so u don't have a clue.
How i work and pay the bills girl and everything i do is for you.

But you're not a boy, so u can't understand.
You are not a perfect woman and i am not a perfect man.

But i can't let u go,because i'm too attached.~

Now tell me,if a guy told u something like that,what would u do? =)
Haha, give you the world worrr!! But hey,stop that flirting at the clubs and *dang* maybe we girls won't act so wild at times.. And actually... Can't let you go.. change it larh,WON"T let you go.. *smiles*

Tell her this Mel and maybe she'll jump off a building for you...

anddddddddddd....

These words just makes my Romeo even more lovable =) *hint hint*
Don't YOU just get it? =D words are so meaningful eyyy...

Blueksss.. =p

2009-05-11T20:53:00.002+08:00

Just Love

I have a lot running through my mind,its like i'm bursting to tell! I'm sick too =(
I'm constantly sneezing my brains out,its getting more and more painful.. Everytime i cough,i can feel a wrenching pain in my chest.. Wonder how long i can bear this. And HAHA,its so not swine flu okay.. I think i just got the Love Bug. Err,i meant the cold.

Some of my buddies are startin f6 today,good luck and all the best.. Somehow,i wished i was at sch too. Miss those old times. I'm going a different path,i don't know how it is yet but i surely hope i'll meet some buddies there that will be almost be like us. But,nothing beats hometown buddies!

I'll be a good girl and get to bed early =) [i feel that "voice" blabbing already,which is not mine by the way,telling me if i'm sick should sleep early and not online anymore. haha..] Wonders if i'll get a lecture from him for being sick.

Haha,i love your chinesey lecture everytime i'm sick by the way =p "go sleep early liaw mummy!"
Haha,i will laaarr.. =D

2009-05-11T19:53:00.002+08:00

Tagged =p

Been tagged for few times lorh... and its all d same post^^ so i think i'll finally just get to it =) m bored now anyways.. hehe..

#1 Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
= YES.

#2 How about drinking?
= I drink too,casual drinker.. so i'd prefer him handling a few too =)

#3 Do you like someone you can't have?
= u mean someone like Edward Cullen? YES. The thing is that he doesn't exist!

#4 If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
= Sure,but no stress. I dun have a reply to that,haha...

#5 What's your favorite sport?
= Its a sport that requires u to be horizontal. SLEEPING. Nah,i'm just kidding..
swimming and tennis..

#6 It's Saturday night, and you're home alone. What do you do?
= Online,eat,watch tv,text,chat on the phone,online again,sleep. And maybe go out ^^

#7 Do you like roller coasters?
= I do,but SOMEONE is afraid of heights. teehee...

#8 When is the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
= Like,right now =D

#9 If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
= Ryan Cabrera would be nice! Owh that voice,that guitar!

#10 What are you doing this weekend?
= hmmm,i need to do some shopping. Anyone?

#11 What is your favorite restaurant?
= i dun have a specific one,since all i crave is tha food.. yahahaha..

#12 Have you ever hugged someone?
= of course! i lovey hugsss..

#13 Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
= nah! whatever for??

#14 Do you like anyone right now?
= i don't like,i loveeee... =p

#15 What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
= the face. i mean like,haha..

#16 Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountain?
= i am so a beach person!

#17 What kind of phone do you have?
= sony ericsson baby!

#18 Computer or Laptop?
= laptop.. i carry it around,and it so thin. EASY..

#19 Jeans or Sweats?
= jeans..

#20 Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
= i have to say,back when i was in f4.. 2007..

#21 How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
= 18! Dec baby here.. =(

#22 What should you be doing right now?
= cleaning out my closet. Yes,i'm not done yet...

#23 What is your favorite TV show?
= am currently loving Lipstick Jungle!

#24 What's been your last purchase?
= Drink from starbucks..

#25 Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
= nope..

#26 Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
= YES. damn that boy hu messed wit the drain thingy near d sch toilet. if i ever see him again,gaaaaahhh!

#27 What do you do when you're at home?
= random stuff if i got nothing to do.. haha..

#28 What is your favorite subject?
= biology.. i find those human stuff interesting.. to hell with plants!

#29 What's the best thing that's ever happened to you?
= Just having the chance to be where i'm at in this life. Its like everything's complete. Except for the fact that i'm in a LDR. Now that sucks. But its alright,because i love YOUUUUU!

#30 Tag 10 people.
= let me make this easy =) i tag anyone reading this and feeling bored. hehe...

2009-05-07T22:11:00.002+08:00

The After...

.... Today is Thursday,finally feel a bit okay to post some stuff up =) people are complainin i don't update.. Well what can u expect from a sober person?!?
And owh yea,thanks for caring peeps! I mean... u guys were so kind u know.. like i needed my space these few days and all to kinda settle down.. =)

So ever since Monday,i've been up to some things i never really get to do properly since i started working ^^ got to rewatch all the best movies of all times!! Err.. actually its just those teary-teary-where-everyone-cries-and-needs tissues-kinda-movies.. Luckily i asked beforehand =) I also got to clean my room [partially,as i have too much crap and stuff lying around] and closet..

Yeah,all those hanky panky things =)

Trying to arrange the clothes.. just a lil glimpse into my closet.. i told u its hard work!

I even found all those letters that were once part of my everyday primary and secondary sch life.. its a few boxes actually.. these are just the ones i'm deciding to keep cuz its so memorable! Especially that SB stuff with Mary =D

The thing is,i also found my ex's letters. WHICH i GLADLY throw away. What the heck was it doing there?!? Supposed to be long gone stuff..

AWW.. and my prefect dutylist! This,i keep too ^^

This was like in f3.. haha,i got the KMT business thingy instead of ERT and spent 3 years with guys.. =.= not that being with the guys sucked but cuz i was so lonely... this was one of my work and i sucked bad time!! But i amazingly got an A for KMT during PMR.. haha.. those so so sweat times.. Luckily i do not havta do this anymore..

Anyways,this is the last month i'm gonna be working =) will spend the last few months slacking and spending quality time wit my family and peeps! Daddy mentioned about taking a family portrait before i go.. Immediately i thought about *dang* WEDDING PICTURES ... me and my crazy mind. =p

Update again within these few days,still got lotsa movies to watch in bed,haha.. I'm not done with the soberness yet! =p

2009-05-04T21:02:00.002+08:00

And So It Comes...

AAAhhh. How i just dread this day. That wonderful aura surrounding me,gone. Vanished. Fadingggg.. Walking thru that door,into a plane and off into the skies.
Did i mention it also hurts? T.T

YOU,don't forget to REMEMBER me... and your English.. cuz it lies in my hands,haha. =p

Thanks to Mel,Clement and amazingly Sherry too, for getting me my favourite mag,CLEO May edition=) as well as that new Maybelline's Express Cat Eyes Mascara,that very cute dress that i was hooked on during window shoppin ages ago and lots and lots and lots of sweets. [~~he'll kill you guys if he finds out!~~ ]

Thanks to Angelna,for contacting me all the time and making me feel better.. I'll get back to u in a few days time when i can finally talk. Hugs gal..

And,thanks to YOU. You made my EVERYTHING. I have no idea how i'll survive tonight,but i am going to be okay. LOVE YOU.

I have a lot to update; stuff that i missed out on updatin this two weeks,pictures and all that.. But i'm just not able to do that now,not just yet.

I feel like a waterbottle that's full to the brim. About to burst soon. =(

Hello bed,laptop,movies and tissues.

2009-05-03T10:06:00.002+08:00

Inevitable Much?

Inevitable. Something that cannot be avoided.

So here i am,facing something inevitable. Something i don't wanna do,something my heart cannot take,something i wish that never has to be done. But still,it has to happen. Owwwwh,how much i hate saying "BYE". So instead of saying 'bye," i'll say "see you soon,". Certainly sounds better than a farewell bid. Its not today,its tomorrow.. Which gives me time to contain this for just a lil while,this awful feeling from taking over me. Its hard,having to hold back the tears in your throat and keep holding your chest to catch a breath without actually hurting.

Am currently chatting on msn wit Clement and Mel,both who woke up early since 5 smth to accompany my pangs. I appreciate it guys,very much. [Although i'm not doin much work typing cuz my fingers are shaking too much and i keep reaching for da tissue.] Both are even willing to bring me out on Tuesday night to cheer me up. Thanks guys,but lets switch it to another night.. think i just wanna be by myself a while.

~~oh gosh,am tearing up already,AGAIN.~~

Sherry asked me why am i acting this way,like its such a big deal. Like its so damned far or smth. But hey,she don't know the story. Neither does she knows what its gonna be like in a few months for me and him,unlike few of my frens who actually cares and gave it a thought.

But hey,its OUR story. Hw is she supposed to know ey? Anyways,i'm gonna go set up my stacks of movies that make u cry till u go "waaa",boxes of tissue and lotsa ice cream. A gal's gotta be a gal after all.

2009-04-25T20:55:00.002+08:00

Sometimes...

Sometimes i really do dislike myself. Why must i miss so much? Why do i long for more? Why i must feel so disappointed when something doesn't turn out right? Why can't i just say those three words and keep a smile and my composure,instead of needing tissues and your shoulders? Why is it always YOUR FACE in my mind? Why am i always checking my phone like a crazy idiot? WHY AM I EVEN TEARING upon typing this post?

I just really miss you. Really really do.

~~i love you,and that's all i really know~~

2009-04-21T19:55:00.002+08:00

Fingers Kept Crossed..

Hey peeps!! =) I'm happy.. Hehe..
Anyways,am reli keeping my fingers crossed for something i reli wanna do within these few days..*winks* I need that short holiday!!
Just sounds so so so tempting,like an escape o sumthing..

haha,we need a break =D but,there is a big possibility that it can't come true.. so sighsss,but all i can do is HOPE.

and oh oh oh my gosh. I like totally am freaking insaneeeeeeee. Wanna noe why?

keep wondering for now,especially Mel ^^ i noe yr just dyinGGGGG to know.

teeheeeeee...

2009-04-17T19:53:00.002+08:00

The Weekends Baby!!

Yeahhh =D Its the weekends!!

I'm anxious!! So,my test today went okay. But it hurts!! So girls,beware during your turn. [~~it ain't nice =(~~ ]

Other than that,i have nothing to say nw.. except for the fact that i'm all smiles =)

After all,it is SATURDAY tomorrow =D [~~mind you,i am happy for other reasons~~] hehehe...

ps: proper update when i am less in crazy mode..^^

2009-04-15T21:15:00.002+08:00

Remembering It All..

Haha,Christine got me thinking.

About? Hehehe..

Well,two years ago [wow,how fast time pass] when i was in f4,i got dumped. Yeah,i know it sucks.. I admit,i was kinda down in the dumps. Its like you have a whole piece of heart,then *dang* someone comes and tears it apart. Pieces and pieces of it all over. And it is never never NEVER THE SAME.

But, as that year advanced,someone came along with a glue stick. Sticked it back together and even made another heart along with it. [i never am sick of this comparison,hehe]. I feel so so so lucky that i've been given like another beginning to start over. =D and i'm treasuring it.. So Christine,thanks for reminding me all that.. i know u didn't mean to,but as i said,i'm a vivid thinker =D

And to that person,thank you for being in my life..=D love you!!
And to God,for answering my prayers ^^

Life these few days has been okay... As Michelle said,time does fly by fast.. Now its April and in no time it'll be August.. I'm feeling very mixed on this.. Anxious,nervous,happy,excited,sad and heavy hearted. Gosh,this is hard.

Am just waiting for the weekends now =D